Things that amuse me today:
#1. My mum and dad noticed me being troubled
#2. I haven't talked for the day ( except for orh, uhmmm, nothing, k )
#3. How slim some girls can be (Don't they eat?!!)
#4. I did Chinese revision
Haha, the last one i know. I mean who does chinese revision? I actually took the effort to memorised letter formats when there isn't any test coming up andandand did my chinese compo homework! Woooooow, I never knew I would ever have the push to do Chinese (Helllo! Cheryl ain't no chinese person) Lol.
Initially my intention the night before, was to be on time for my POA remedial. I set my alarm at 9.12PM not, noticing the back I carried on with my sleep. When I got up, I was wondering why does it seem that 9.12am is so long? I picked up my phone and WTFFFFFFFFF! It was already 11.07am! & thats when I realised I set my alarm wrongly ( Gives the =.= expression)
Jumped outta bed and cabbed down to school hoping to make it. But when I got there, class already ended. Utter disappointment in myself. Regardless of being late, I still went on to find MissMa, hoping she won't kill me as I already texted her I was gonna be late.
She did not! (Phew) However, while I was talking to her by the staircase near the HOD room, MrWong walked out. he kinda give me some sort of piss off look and mumbled : what is that kind of shorts are you wearing?
Me: (Looks at MissMa) huh? What was that about?
MissMa: W-What did he say? I didnt catch that
Me: (repeated what he say)
MissMa: Cannot meh?
Me: Exactly! I didn't know I'm not allowed to wear P.E shirt with black FBT =.= I thought they only say not with Np shirt.
( Once again, the words he said kept repeating while MissMa was teaching me POA)
MrWong has impacted me alot in the past 3years, and of course, what he says greatly 'hurt' me as well. I don't know, maybe I was never good enough for the shoulder stripes on my shoulders. From the start, I was never a good role model. At least I tried, just that no one sees it.
Some might think, aiyaaaa why am I thinking so much over such a minor matter. I won't bother explaining and I will only say " Its complicated."
These few months haven't really good for me. Perhaps I'm being too over-sensitive or being too stressed out. Frankly I am. Mentally!
Did some self-studying at mac after the one hour remedial, I needed some time alone. I don't feel like saying anything, my background seems to have darken and nothing else mattered for today.
When I got home, I didn't flare up although my mum was nagging. In fact, I don't remember what was the topic. Whatever she asked me to do, I just did without hesitation. Soon, I laid on the bed and went to sleep, mum was making a fuss but I didnt even bother at all. ( Thats when my parents noticed something was wrong)
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I wna' tin of Ben&Jerry's ice cream. Might help me make me feel better.
I've become someone I don't know anymore.
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