I want a family that is able to see what i like and support me.
Not pour me cold water and say im wasting my life doing useless things.
I want my family to encourage me if i fall and not say i suck..
Friday, September 24, 2010
My heart and brain are my devil and angel
Heyall! Missing in action recently. Been busy with work and partying i suppose :X Did not follow my schedule accordingly to how i have planned it -.- Ohmygosh, i don't even know where to start.
16Sep- After work, planned to head over to Boiler Room at St James to celebrate Car's belated birthday with the Ck people. But... I couldn't get in. To admit, i was seriously damn disappointed and sad. I wanted to go in so badly. YY tried his best, but th bouncer was too strick :/ Had to go cab back in the end.
Come to think about it now, i feel bad pushing you away, but i had to control myself. I feel horrible whenever i think about your girlf :( Even if i could turn back time, i think i will do the same thing :/
17Sep- Supposingly, after work i should have headed to camp, but... I went Scape for Club instead :/ Yes, of course its with Jiahua (L) Had one hell of a time! The wait to enter the stupid club was FUCK UP seriously! I'll never go there again. Super unorganised. Nearly wanted to backout halfway if it wasn't for babe's persistence (Y) Thats the reason why we click.
After we entered which was nearly midnight, we danced for awhile but it feels weird dancing soberish. Hence, heading to our usual hangout bar to have a couple of rinks before heading back. Decided to try shots. JAGERBOMB! We were being chickens, so just order one for each of us and got the vodka that YY introduced to me :D
Who knew! Halfway thru, a middle aged guy approached us saying he would like to offer us his reminding whisky in the bottle. No, its not Chivas. So we were like, why not if its free right. Of course we did worry if it was doped. But his friend was a female so chances are... 50-50 i suppose. Hahaha. We drank it plainly on the rocks, about 4 cups each and woahhhhh~ We couldn't take it anymore. Its like 40% alright! &&&& and still called another round of Jagerbomb for us and even paid for us! LIKE WHAT~~~!!!! So yeaaaaa, free drinks. But, first time in my life. I AM ANNOUNCED DRUNK!! Holy smokes, we had to get out, so we told the guy we were meeting someone.
I don't think anyone will be interested to know the after-drinking-effect. So i guess i'll just stop here. Had the worst hangover the next morning over at babes house :O
18Sep- Still having slight hangover from the day before, headed home to freashen up and met up with babe, dick, Kevan and Joshua for our alumni BBQ :) It was a random BBQ but quite a number turned out. My first BBQ not eating anything. Seeing him.. The way he talked.. I guess, we are really history, you won't even look back. I should have gotten over you sooner. Now, being like an idiot still missing you so badly when i was drunk. WTF~
ANYWAY!! Went over to Orchard to meet up with YY, promised to acc him to celebrate his friend's birthday at a Thai Disco. At first i didnt know what to expect, but his friends were all friendly and accommodating :) Alsoooooo!! ITS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE SEEING SO MANY MARTEL IN FRONT OF ME!! They were crazy enough to open 9bottles of it for the whole night (Y) I am so proud of myself for not being dead drunk. Just tipsy i guess... But idk why i still can't remember some stuffs O.O
I guess, these are the few exciting updates for last week. This week is all just work, training and hanging out. I miss JIAHUA ADORA ETHEL ALYSSA FELICIA ttm! :( Friendly matches are starting soon. Gonna need to buck up and go for training regularly to catchup! Results are out tmr tooo!! OMG LA! I totally forgot about it!!!!!! -.-
GOSH!!! ALL THE BEST EVERYONE ^^
16Sep- After work, planned to head over to Boiler Room at St James to celebrate Car's belated birthday with the Ck people. But... I couldn't get in. To admit, i was seriously damn disappointed and sad. I wanted to go in so badly. YY tried his best, but th bouncer was too strick :/ Had to go cab back in the end.
Come to think about it now, i feel bad pushing you away, but i had to control myself. I feel horrible whenever i think about your girlf :( Even if i could turn back time, i think i will do the same thing :/
17Sep- Supposingly, after work i should have headed to camp, but... I went Scape for Club instead :/ Yes, of course its with Jiahua (L) Had one hell of a time! The wait to enter the stupid club was FUCK UP seriously! I'll never go there again. Super unorganised. Nearly wanted to backout halfway if it wasn't for babe's persistence (Y) Thats the reason why we click.
After we entered which was nearly midnight, we danced for awhile but it feels weird dancing soberish. Hence, heading to our usual hangout bar to have a couple of rinks before heading back. Decided to try shots. JAGERBOMB! We were being chickens, so just order one for each of us and got the vodka that YY introduced to me :D
Who knew! Halfway thru, a middle aged guy approached us saying he would like to offer us his reminding whisky in the bottle. No, its not Chivas. So we were like, why not if its free right. Of course we did worry if it was doped. But his friend was a female so chances are... 50-50 i suppose. Hahaha. We drank it plainly on the rocks, about 4 cups each and woahhhhh~ We couldn't take it anymore. Its like 40% alright! &&&& and still called another round of Jagerbomb for us and even paid for us! LIKE WHAT~~~!!!! So yeaaaaa, free drinks. But, first time in my life. I AM ANNOUNCED DRUNK!! Holy smokes, we had to get out, so we told the guy we were meeting someone.
I don't think anyone will be interested to know the after-drinking-effect. So i guess i'll just stop here. Had the worst hangover the next morning over at babes house :O
18Sep- Still having slight hangover from the day before, headed home to freashen up and met up with babe, dick, Kevan and Joshua for our alumni BBQ :) It was a random BBQ but quite a number turned out. My first BBQ not eating anything. Seeing him.. The way he talked.. I guess, we are really history, you won't even look back. I should have gotten over you sooner. Now, being like an idiot still missing you so badly when i was drunk. WTF~
ANYWAY!! Went over to Orchard to meet up with YY, promised to acc him to celebrate his friend's birthday at a Thai Disco. At first i didnt know what to expect, but his friends were all friendly and accommodating :) Alsoooooo!! ITS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE SEEING SO MANY MARTEL IN FRONT OF ME!! They were crazy enough to open 9bottles of it for the whole night (Y) I am so proud of myself for not being dead drunk. Just tipsy i guess... But idk why i still can't remember some stuffs O.O
I guess, these are the few exciting updates for last week. This week is all just work, training and hanging out. I miss JIAHUA ADORA ETHEL ALYSSA FELICIA ttm! :( Friendly matches are starting soon. Gonna need to buck up and go for training regularly to catchup! Results are out tmr tooo!! OMG LA! I totally forgot about it!!!!!! -.-
GOSH!!! ALL THE BEST EVERYONE ^^
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Unlucky aura never fails to fall on me
Its the exam period now for all poly students i suppose. Except DESIGNERS~ Damn~ :( Just completed my POM paper on Monday and i guess it was manageable, only couldn't remember some stuffs and applied the wrong thing a question which caused me a lot of marks! _|_
Not forgetting my Marketing paper today. Let me tell you guys something really dumb and i guess i could suicide -.- The day before today, I went over to starbucks over at Town to study ECONS. I thought today is gonna be ECONS! WTF RIGHT!!!!!! Elvina reminded me while i was online and FML SERIOUSLY~! It was already coming midnight!!! _|_ _|_ _|_ I cried as if more den one person in my family died -.- (Touch Wood) I called babe ( she was busy watching her Gossip Girls) and told her about it crying so badly... She was so patient, telling me to chill~ Managed to chiong-ed to memorize 9 chapters (while crying and shivering) I was fucking scaredddddd!!!! I had no idea how i did it. But thank god! i studied all the chapters before already. If not i would definitely not be able to make it today :) It was seriously a close shave....
My brain is exhausted. Filled with last minute Marketing. My mind wont absorb anymore Econs. I think/hope/pray that they are permanent in my brain now :(:( ! I dont wanna fail !! 60% siol~ Gosh!
Ohyes, i forgot to thank YY here! He bought me a muffin and gave me his candy :) I think he knows food energizes me :P Accompanied me after his work for awhile too. So nice right! ^^ Talking about food. I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT!!! I FEEL FAT EVERYWHERE! MY THIGHS, FACE, STOMACH, ARMS!!! I need to exercise - run, swim, lift weights, dance, basketball!!!! Anyone wanna volunteer to do it all with me? :P Besides babe of course.
Alrights, gotta rest soon for tmr's paper. Hopefully i can do it! GOODLUCK EVERYONE! (L)(L)(L)
Not forgetting my Marketing paper today. Let me tell you guys something really dumb and i guess i could suicide -.- The day before today, I went over to starbucks over at Town to study ECONS. I thought today is gonna be ECONS! WTF RIGHT!!!!!! Elvina reminded me while i was online and FML SERIOUSLY~! It was already coming midnight!!! _|_ _|_ _|_ I cried as if more den one person in my family died -.- (Touch Wood) I called babe ( she was busy watching her Gossip Girls) and told her about it crying so badly... She was so patient, telling me to chill~ Managed to chiong-ed to memorize 9 chapters (while crying and shivering) I was fucking scaredddddd!!!! I had no idea how i did it. But thank god! i studied all the chapters before already. If not i would definitely not be able to make it today :) It was seriously a close shave....
My brain is exhausted. Filled with last minute Marketing. My mind wont absorb anymore Econs. I think/hope/pray that they are permanent in my brain now :(:( ! I dont wanna fail !! 60% siol~ Gosh!
Ohyes, i forgot to thank YY here! He bought me a muffin and gave me his candy :) I think he knows food energizes me :P Accompanied me after his work for awhile too. So nice right! ^^ Talking about food. I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT!!! I FEEL FAT EVERYWHERE! MY THIGHS, FACE, STOMACH, ARMS!!! I need to exercise - run, swim, lift weights, dance, basketball!!!! Anyone wanna volunteer to do it all with me? :P Besides babe of course.
Alrights, gotta rest soon for tmr's paper. Hopefully i can do it! GOODLUCK EVERYONE! (L)(L)(L)
Friday, September 3, 2010
Heartache
I happened to read condolence messages on Jolene's FB about her grandparent. & i began wonder, how does it really feels. Not like i wanna experience it. But both my grandma has passed on and idk why i dont feel anything.
I remember the day my dad called me last year when i was having school saying my grandma has left us, Yes, i was in shock, but somehow it wasnt to the extent that i cried and ran home kinda thing. Instead I was just like : OMG?! Are u serious? I asked about the details and hung up. Yup, thats about it. Am i being heartless or?
Frankly, I wasn't close to my grandma to begin with. Her eyes only had my bro and even on her deathbed, she ignored me.. Sometimes i wish my brother and i are close to till we have endless topics together. There was once, we took the same bus and train together to different destination. We had nothing to talk about.. There was awkward silence~ It shouldnt be this way! Hes my brother yet... (sighs) Same goes for my parents, I cant seem to open up to them anymore. For example, i talk about a recent stuff im into or something to catchup, they will just pour me a bucket of cold water saying its a waste of time and i should concentrate on my studies..
How am I to communicate with them?
Sometimes, its really tiring and torturing. Its even worst then maintaining a tiring relationship. I guess im done whining~
I remember the day my dad called me last year when i was having school saying my grandma has left us, Yes, i was in shock, but somehow it wasnt to the extent that i cried and ran home kinda thing. Instead I was just like : OMG?! Are u serious? I asked about the details and hung up. Yup, thats about it. Am i being heartless or?
Frankly, I wasn't close to my grandma to begin with. Her eyes only had my bro and even on her deathbed, she ignored me.. Sometimes i wish my brother and i are close to till we have endless topics together. There was once, we took the same bus and train together to different destination. We had nothing to talk about.. There was awkward silence~ It shouldnt be this way! Hes my brother yet... (sighs) Same goes for my parents, I cant seem to open up to them anymore. For example, i talk about a recent stuff im into or something to catchup, they will just pour me a bucket of cold water saying its a waste of time and i should concentrate on my studies..
How am I to communicate with them?
Sometimes, its really tiring and torturing. Its even worst then maintaining a tiring relationship. I guess im done whining~
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Dance your heart away
Finally im gonna upload a post with pictures! My camera hasn't been put to use lately :(
Teacher's day performance back at ChongBoon Sec! Hahahaha. I've been going back too recently :P All of us had to do our own makeup + hair and come up with our outfit. never really had such experience before. Last year's performance with 4E3 was enjoyable but there were loads of problems. This year's was really cool! Made more new friends and the outcome of the performance should be commendable as we only had like 2 offical and 1 private practice? :D
Ohyes, i've stop working for the time being before exams. Need to like concentrate. Im lagging behind :/ Gonna miss my cute anonnying collgeues :) EXAMS IN 5DAYS! "/
Teacher's day performance back at ChongBoon Sec! Hahahaha. I've been going back too recently :P All of us had to do our own makeup + hair and come up with our outfit. never really had such experience before. Last year's performance with 4E3 was enjoyable but there were loads of problems. This year's was really cool! Made more new friends and the outcome of the performance should be commendable as we only had like 2 offical and 1 private practice? :D
Ohyes, i've stop working for the time being before exams. Need to like concentrate. Im lagging behind :/ Gonna miss my cute anonnying collgeues :) EXAMS IN 5DAYS! "/
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