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I'm not waiting around for a man to save me
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
I don't need to be anyone's baby
Yep, I don't need another half to make me whole




Been extremely free lately. Almost all my new clothes are still eagerly waiting for me to pick them out for a walk :( Jiahua is working. Ethel is working. Shihui is working. Adora is schooling. I WANT A JOB TOOOO~ Im sick of spending money on transport and excessive food. (Double sighs) Waiting for responds regarding the Expo job. HOPEFULLY I GET IT! Im desperate :O

Babe and I decided to attend ROMP V. & Hopefully, March7's St James one with Ethel and babe will be successful too (: Sadly, Adora won't be able to make it with us :/

Whataya want from me

You once asked me that. I said a whole lot, hoping you will ______. Now, its probably too late. What is it you really want? What is sincerity? What is love? What is truly you? What is not giving up? What should I do?

Thanks for letting me love you (:

Once a girl's mind is set on something. Nothing could change it

Hilarious Hilarious!

Idk why young punks think that yelling vulgarities are cool and gives them a position in their clique? Or walking like their balls are swollen looks brave? HAHA. My god~ Actually not only young punks are doing it, even guys over 18 still finds it cool. Can make more friends to pass time? Get a life people.

Anyway, talking about young punks. This afternoon, babe and I decided to head for Thomson Plaza for Swensons since its cheaper as its students hour ^^ When we got on the bus, 3yps behind we "gossiping" loudly behind. (Im not sure if gossiping is the right word as their voices could be heard so accurately at th upper deck)
They were in fact talking about babe and I. Not being BHB to mention about this but its extremely funnnnny :O

They were guessing our age. They actually thought we were below 15 ! LOL?!!! & We always thought we had an older look. They were deciding and daring one another to approach us by sitting at the seats in front of us. Babe and I SERIOUSLY COULD NOT STOP LAUGHING! Its was OH-MY-GODLY CHILDISH????? o.O & one of them actually sounded like a DUCK!
HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

When it was time for us to alight, they actually dared to whistle at us and said hi. I coudln't stand it further, so while walking down the stairs, I kinda said it a pretty loud tone" Shut up childish freaks?" LOL! Couldn't believed what I said until babe confirmed with me. & babe even heard them saying" Eh! 她讲我们childish." I TOTALLY WENT LMAO! Also, all 3 of them stunk their face at the glass window of the bus and I pointed __. OMGOMOMGGGG HAAHAHHAHHA! It would be even better if babe did the middle finger with me. LOL! Amateur~~

Sorry Johnson! Didn't go over to your place today :/ NEBO SOOOOON! ^^

Someone reminded me

"Baby, be my Valentine"
This is a sentence that not every guy in Singapore will say to their girlfriends/girlfriend-to-be/wife. Not saying that wishing Happy Valentines Day isn't a good thing but I suppose this sentence would be much sweeter eh? Haha :)

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First day of NewYear was very boring. Rotted at home and out for dinner and back. Saw many people flying kites and it was a great sight. Never had a chance to fly a kite. Seems fun! I should try it someday :D

I can't wait for school to start! It would be a total new life and a whole new turnover for me! Dispose the past and welcome the present I suppose. Im sure dwelling on the past, expecting for th unexpected would be a dream. Laughs* Im also sure everyone has moved on too and just wishing everything would be better for the year of the tiger! Goodluck :D

Spare me

I WANT TO WORK W JIAHUA AND ETHEL!! :((
I ain't sociable

Body says YES, mind says NO

This people rock. ANDREW GARCIA! He's in America Idol is upcoming season (:

Replay cover-IYAZ

Knock you down cover- Andrew Garcia & Cathy
Monday (:

Met up with Ethel in the afternoon and went to get our jeans :( ALL MY JEANS ARE EXPANDED DUE TO WASHING MANY TIMES! __ The dirt from warehouse before* Bought a shorts too :/ Sighsss* Waste my precious money :( I should stop nets-ing everything and start asking mother for money :X She went to work at 4.30pm at United Sqaure Swensons! Go support her uh! :P

She told me my outlet will have alot of Malays :((((((( I am racist! I dont like working with ALL MALAYS! FML -.- Training tmr would be soooooo boringgggggggggggg ='/ Dreadful~~

Anyw, while waiting for Johnson to finish is NCC stuffs. I waited for him at hub for 2HRS! While waiting. I saw my cadets! Hahaaa. took an awkward photo with one of them as she insisted :P

Also, Went to Cotton on and got myself 2 items. I DIDNT KNOW AMK HAD COTTON ON & RUBI! JESUSSSS~ I was living under a rock =/ Saw Pxy and Stella too (:

& plan for dinner was suppose to be at CYX dad's stall so thanks to Johnson we managed to find our way there. I even forgot how we got there the first time :/ When we got there, CYS wasn't there yet hence Johnson gave him a call. It was meant to b a surprise so he told him he was under his block. LOL? So while waiting, we went over to look at the zodiac displays and took photos. Even waited for the gold sprinklers to drop. Johnson's bright ideaaaaa! But we got a piece of paper and there is 4D numbers on it. HAHAHAHAHAH. ANUTY LEY!

Johnson trying to imitate the Tiger above. HAHAHHA

IM SUPPOSE TO BE A MONKEY!


I look horrid in this one :/
Ate, chat, heart talks and went to look for my mum w Johnson :O Hahaha! He helped us carry stuffs and my mum seemed to like him. LOL!

&& Had a late night surprise. Not exactly but it was great :P Can't say what but there are pictures!

The fries I dropped -.- I toppled so many things ytd. LOL

A familar view? Strutting his new phone. GEEEEESSSSSSSS~ Check out those biceps. Fats or muscles? You vote :D Thanks alot anyw (: Had a great time!

Tuesday (:
Mum woke me up early morning when I slept ultra late "this" morning :/ Why didn't she went to workkkk? I was dead tired! Even now~~ Im hungry and my eyelids are dropping. I GOT COTTON CANDY'S CRAVING! :D

Went for dance later in the afternoon and babe and I changed class :D Its soo much better and easier to learn! Its so us :P Really prefer a smaller class ^^ I feel that my confidence is back! Catched up w babe alittle as we havent met up for awhile now. SORRRRY! I WAS LATE AGAINNNN =.= We had to run to the studioo :/ Reminded us of the first lesson we attended :P

Went over to Boon Lay to meet my parents and NTUC @ hub after that. It opens till 2am now! HAHAHA! AUNTY BEHAVIOUR ONCE AGAIN :O

Having Late night delight again later. WOOOOHOOOOO. But im really tired tho. ITS ALRIGHT! ^^

永恒不存在

Helllloooo!

Thursday
Out w babe and Ethel! :D Went for our interview over at Dhoby.G, decided to not go for it. Hahaa! So proud of ourselves to put studies first. Heeheee! Got a hired at Swenson and got posted to NorthPoint :D Visit me people! Awww man, if Babe didn't get th Home fix job, we might work together :( Sighs! But luckily! She got posted to Home fix North Point tooooooo :DD Isn't that like fate?! ;P Sorry babe, I was v reluctant to join you at Home Fix :(
Anyw, Ethel will be United Sqaure Swensons!

Anyw, training on wed! I can't wait to workkkkk :D Idk why. HEEHEHEHEEEEEE!
Got off at Bishan MRT w babe to acc her fix her Ipod touch. The people there are so weird! Made us so pissed! Realised still had some time so went over to Starbucks to grab a drink and woooo Joseph was there :D He played some dumbass game. I never understand lame games :( HAHAAA! & Babe actually how! DAMN!

Parents fetched us and went Ikea to do some shopping :D Super tiredddd!

Friday
Out w Kahjui kor! For th v first time after 3yrs? HAHAHAAA. He was so shy at the start. Totally gave him a box on his arm. LOL! Cheryl is brave for once! :D He treated me movie n half dinner (: Felt bad. Heeee so treat him ice cream (: We watched LEGION! My first time laughing at a horror movie. The old lady w fangs was crawling around the celling. Everyone was like damn quiet and only 2 of us laughing. LOL

Got back my stuffs from Dex before th movie n Hey! After our dinner I saw dex again outside Mandrian looking at stuffs. HAHAHAA! Lov his blings man. Kj love his shoes O.O There was a conver:
Me: EH you know, Dex is M'sian. Then he always say" 你走开啦~~"
Kj: No comments* Awhile later* I also M'sian ley
Me: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YEAAAAAAAAAAA! TOTALLY PS MYSELF :/ Hahahah

Photos :
I think the blurr one nicest :D Just like what babe always say. hahahaha. I MISS HER :( Also! Kahjui is even more vain than me!


Quit winking at me!!

Saturday

Homed all day to do spring cleaning :( Tired shag and almost done w the house (: Dinner was at 12am. First time after so long I felt hungry automatically. In order to digest my food, Imma go watch a watched before drama.

I feel stupid :/

Don't dwell on it already Joshua :D

Its so dusty that my bro and I had to wear a mask to work. He won't stop sneezing. Seems like our house havent been cleaned for years -.-

The mess :/ Its only part of my room.

Lord, I'm feeling cold

Don't make someone a priority if they only make you an option.

Sometimes people tell me its not worth it its not worth it. I'll find someone else better and whatsoever. I feel that there is no such thing as worth it or not. Its whether Im willing to give it my all or not. Someone once asked, please guide me along.. I said: There's no way I can guide you. Its really from your bottom of your heart. As I thought through everything I've said through these months and I realise, no, Im not wrong to say this. It is a fact. I hate to say it but I really don't understand whats on your mind & I can't understand you TRULY.. :(

Babe, this is for you.
Although its only been a few days after my breakup, you've been there like 24/7 even like 3-4am. You didn't confort me with money or bringing me to places or any special arrangements. However, every moment talking to you through the phone or heart-to-heart chats at starbucks or anywhere, I know you cared. I have to admit I can't overcome my feelings yet but you have no idea how much you mean to me. This sounds GAY I know but I have to say it. a bigbigbigbig THANKYOU to you :D From th bottom of your heart, I can feel it (: Esp the most helpless moment when I was at Sentosa.. Vice-Versa, I'll be there for you too no matter what! :D

Its good you made up your mind to start afresh. I will support you by your side as a friend. The importance of me in you.. I still don't know. Just wna let you know, I feel that I've become an option instead of a priority. Im not sure Im misunderstanding you or what but this is how I feel through your actions, daily messages, future doings and talks on th phone. I've become a past tense (: Omg, what am I talking. I should feel happy for you. Here I am trying to gain sympathy. HA! Sorry about that. Anyw, you don't have to worry about how I feel or anything. I think I got it. Thanks for the memories :D
The song Happy-Leona Lewis on my blog is for you.

Wake up CHERYL!

Watched Entertainment last night on Channel 5 and they were reporting about th Grammys 2010! Adam here was co-host I supposed. & he named Best Dressed as well as Worst dressed. Hahahhaha! It was hilarious. Pink topped it. She was GOD DAMN PRETTY! :D Heres a photo!



Together with Adam Lambert here rocking a ribbon tie in the style of Colonel Sanders! Not sure if he’s going for a western or a Victorian look, but we love it!! :D Adam is like totally the next Micheal Jackson. He is such a trend setter w Lady Gaga. Also! Check out the tie being paired with a black sequin jacket and glam-rock boots(Can't see the boots in this photo, Totallly AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ! :D God I love him!

Okay this is totally random but isn't he SO BEAUTIFULLLLLLLLLLLL?! OMg, DATE ME I WOULD SCREAM* LOL! Anyw, to conclude w all th good looking people I've seen today, I was out w babe at Town + 313 & AN EXTREMELY CUTE WHITE MAN approached us asking me whether my glasses had lenses on as I looked like this:


Yup there isn't any lenses and he said he wanted to take a look, so I took it out n he wore it PLUS show his friends! SO CUTEEE! OMGGGGG-ZXZ. After we left, Babe and I totally screaming. Haahahahahaaa! Lets go back n ask for his number -.- LOL. Giggles*

Went over to Forum to get our payslip from Giselle. & my holy god, Deborah Lilian Giselle n Melody were there. Haha. So many people O.O Got it, went over to S&E to look for dex. As dashing as ever! :P Loving his gucci vest and he went ( All in Chinese )
Dex: EH! you all never work already ah?
Us: Yeaaa. school starting soon. Rubbish*
Dex: Orhhhh, eh! Your boots v nice ley! How much
Us: Cheap Cheap one la
Dex: Hahahaa! We can make a boots team
He was wearing boots too*
So funnyyyy~ Th way he speak :P

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Love my boots tyvm :D

Oh well, going for more interviews w Babe and Ethel tmr (: Hopefully we get in. Dread staying at home. Probably going to find Dex again to get my Lord Of The Rings DVDs back :D
KK, gotta do housework now. Check out th bloody time :/
Toodles!

When everything seems to have gotten dimmer

I AM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDD~
I keep telling everyone I'm literally DECAYING at home! I see mushrooms & ferns growing out of me already! Babe says: IM A FUNGI GIRL :/

Mum told me some stuffs while doing spring cleaning yesterday. It tore my dignity and confidence.

While counting my AngBao money 2years back..
Me: Maa! This money will go to my Uni fund :D
Mum: Huh? You want to go Uni ah? Don't go uni la, its not your route.
Me: Huhhh?.. Y-you mean you expect me to go to work right after poly and thats the end of my study life?
Mum: You really want go Uni ah? You want to be like your brother lidat? Went into like hestiation mode*
Me: Ma, You're so mean... how can you say that. Nevermind...

If I contiuned explaining myself, i would totally cry out loud. I teared but she thought I was kidding. I suppose, even my own mum doesnt understand what I truly want to do in life. How much I wanted to prove to my family wrong. So.. It kinda means, when she know which poly n school I went, her encouragement was a total fake :( I don't need such encouragement mum. I'm seriously devastated.

Okay, I admit I'm not smart. I have no natural talents nor any form of common sense. But don't I deserve an opportunity to at least try? To her, my life is gonna be a follower forever. Forget it. FML ( Its something I learnt today).. I WILL STILL DO MY ALL TO GET INTO A BUSINESS COURSE IN A UNIVERSITY!

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Anyway, decided not to go for the orientation tmr for the stupid events job thing. Seems scammy. We're not gonna take the risk. Instead we're going job hunting again. Told babe n Ethel I want a florist job since Valentine's is coming. Im not gonna celebrate it. But it feels great to feel happy for someone else too I suppose :X Yes I may sound crazy but Im serious. A florist job is kinda interesting and low profile too. Can learn how to do arragements and stuffs (: I will like it. But if there isn't any vacancies, I'll just move on to the Home-Fix job babe intro-ed or Borders if theres any :D

Hopefully poly startsssss sooooonn! Im Ultra sick of staying at home. I'm penniless and the starting from today its adult fee... Just great~