I AM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDD~
I keep telling everyone I'm literally DECAYING at home! I see mushrooms & ferns growing out of me already! Babe says: IM A FUNGI GIRL :/
Mum told me some stuffs while doing spring cleaning yesterday. It tore my dignity and confidence.
While counting my AngBao money 2years back..
Me: Maa! This money will go to my Uni fund :D
Mum: Huh? You want to go Uni ah? Don't go uni la, its not your route.
Me: Huhhh?.. Y-you mean you expect me to go to work right after poly and thats the end of my study life?
Mum: You really want go Uni ah? You want to be like your brother lidat? Went into like hestiation mode*
Me: Ma, You're so mean... how can you say that. Nevermind...
If I contiuned explaining myself, i would totally cry out loud. I teared but she thought I was kidding. I suppose, even my own mum doesnt understand what I truly want to do in life. How much I wanted to prove to my family wrong. So.. It kinda means, when she know which poly n school I went, her encouragement was a total fake :( I don't need such encouragement mum. I'm seriously devastated.
Okay, I admit I'm not smart. I have no natural talents nor any form of common sense. But don't I deserve an opportunity to at least try? To her, my life is gonna be a follower forever. Forget it. FML ( Its something I learnt today).. I WILL STILL DO MY ALL TO GET INTO A BUSINESS COURSE IN A UNIVERSITY!
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Anyway, decided not to go for the orientation tmr for the stupid events job thing. Seems scammy. We're not gonna take the risk. Instead we're going job hunting again. Told babe n Ethel I want a florist job since Valentine's is coming. Im not gonna celebrate it. But it feels great to feel happy for someone else too I suppose :X Yes I may sound crazy but Im serious. A florist job is kinda interesting and low profile too. Can learn how to do arragements and stuffs (: I will like it. But if there isn't any vacancies, I'll just move on to the Home-Fix job babe intro-ed or Borders if theres any :D
Hopefully poly startsssss sooooonn! Im Ultra sick of staying at home. I'm penniless and the starting from today its adult fee... Just great~
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