Sun after storm?

Hey all! Havent been posting for quite some time now. What have i been busy with? Errrr study and tuning my perspective i guess :) Everything is much better now. Although nothing much has changed. Except that I have decided to give up my beloved basketball and concentrate on my studies to get my ass to uni :/

Mid sem test has already started and i really hope i can more Bs than Cs! I need some encouragement for my efforts please. Not from someone, just from my grades. It would give me the best satisfactory. Anyaway! Jiahua is having her knee surgey in a few days :( May she quickly recover! I hate to see her sick or weak. Sometimes i wish i could give her some of my immune system. Or be rich enough to buy her bird nest every week -.-

I'd be heading to taiwan right after exams and i'll be missing xmas :( I really miss ADORA AND ETHEL BADLY!!! I havent talked to them nor have i seen him in ages _|_ Some friend i am~

Ohoh! I HAVE PINK HAIR :):) & im loving it. I shall have it done more before new year (Y) HEHEHEH Its addicting i tell u.


Also! I'll be getting a hamster when i come back and a TATTOO FOR MY 18 BIRTHDAY!! (Y) present for myself :):) Im finally legal in a few more days!! :D:D

Help me

I don't have the energy to carry on with whatever i am doing now. You know, its the kind of feeling whereby you just wanna put everything you're doing down and stare into blank space with no one interrupting you. Its just you and the peaceful environment. No matter how much fun i play or have a mini getaway, it doesn't work anymore..... Everytime i go back to school, my mind will be : When will this ever end~. I enjoy studying really as well as basketball. But somethings, just don't go the way i want it to.

Take studies for example, i did consistent study for my bus stats but i screwed the test today. I was really hoping to get a full marks!!! I didnt know there was another question at the last page!! Although it was only 2 marks. Plus, i suddenly couldnt remember how to do standard deviation for raw data. MY MIND FUCKING BLANK OUT!!!!! The paper is fucking easy and i just simply lost 5marks like that. Am i born stupid or what. I admit i was pretty distracted over something before the lesson but IT SHOULDNT BE AN EXCUSE!!! I couldnt help but went to the toliet to cry. I was SO DISAPPOINTED in myself :( Advise me........

For basketball, I really wanna try to do better but i feel that i've come to a stage where i have to be good already and there isnt time for me to start from basics. Better with my mates now but i feel im a waste of resources and i should quit too. Like the other freshies. I suck. I realise that i have nothing i am good at nor i can boast about. May it be dance, bball, studies~ I can't even excel in ONE! -.-

I'm really really really lost. I don't know what to do anymore. Im just blindly studying now and just wanna pull up my grades from previous sem. Friendships are another problem. So is grouping for group projects. FML!

I hope everyday is like that

Missing the girl above :(

Been busy this week end :) I like! Volunteered for Standard Chartered Marathon 2010 REPC event in which my job is to give up the runner's race pack :) Im counter crew with Charaine and Kuien! It was alot more fun then i thought ^^ Not to mentioned! Cute guy from our school passing me the Race shirts. HEHEHHEHE!! Win!! :P Partner Tingyi for the 2nd day as her friend couldn't make it :) Our friendship got closer too (Y)


Today's plan was to go Zouk with Babe but her mum last minute didnt allow her to go. I was afraid of that :( Frankly i was quite disappointed as i was really looking forward to it throughout the week and jumping around expo telling my friends how excited i am. But i don't blame her of cause. I'm sure she feels as bad :( Sighhsss~ Anyway, since i was so "sian" the whole day, i had no motivation to do any work. Cause my aim today was to play.. All i accomplished today was bathe the dog. SUCKS! I FEEL SO GUILTY NOW :/

Tmr have to head to expo again at 1.30 :) Last day of the event but i don't intend to stay till the end of it. I guess i wont be collecting my 20bucks n Ben n Jerry's ice cream :(:( !! Going to Sengkang to ball with Club21 friends :) & i only know one person there- Alex. Ohwell, who cares! I got the feel to ball tmr.

Need to start concentrating again from Tuesday on. Been wasting far too much time!! & I havent even done my weekly revision :( GUILTY MUCH~

FML LITERALLY

I am so glad no one ever comes here to read. Its the only place to rant and i don't have to bother posting pictures anymore.

At the back of my brain there is a recorder on repeat : LIFE SUCKS LIFE SUCKS LIFE SUCKS..

Im not the type that usually say life sucks, i can't love again or i want to die kinda thing so easily.. But when i really do say it, i fucking mean it!

I think i've been placed in my comfort zone for far too long and now i'm facing problems which i dont know how to solve or overcome. People can be so mean and self centred and all they care is about themselves. They can pretend to listen and act as if they care. & the next, they will tell someone else saying: This person is crazy, so troubled over this kind of 'minor' things ( to them) for what. LOL! I mean like, if u really dont care, dont act as if you do. Trying to be nice? Dont even bother seriously~

& i don't have the energy to think about any relationship stuffs anymore. To me now, i am afraid of it. I think its a total waste of time. They rub salt to your wound. Doesn't apply to all i guess, just me. I am weird. Always have been.

Life sucks now!

Another wordy post. Went out with mum today for alittle shopping. Brought her to the watch shop where i was suppose to get one for myself. Ended up she bought a DKNY one herself :( I wanted it ! Damn... I was looking around the shop and whoa! I had no idea Marc by Marc Jacobs came up with their line of watches as well! SUPER NICEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! But uber ex :( So eyed on a Adidas one instead but guess what! IT WAS LAST PIECE AND IT HAS A BIG SCRATCH ON IT!!! :(:( Now, i couldn't find it anywhere. I guess i have to make my way down to the boutique *sighs! Disappointed...

Anyway, told my mum some of problems over lunch @ fish n co. Feeeels like we havent talked in ages, Actually its a fact. I can't wait to go Taiwan with her. I need a getaway :( I wanna go clubmed with babe too :/

Goodnight world! Time for another dreadful schoolday in a few hours

True colours

Lost again against NYP. Although i wasn't playing, i really wanted them to win :/ Like strengthen our bond together. Everyone are good individual players yet.. Wanted to see them like smile :(

Apart from that, Im literally drained from everything. School, friends, basketball, studies, relationships.. All coming together at once, im really not as strong to handle them all together. Nearly broke down in the train while telling Jiahua everything. If i wasn't in public, i might have just blown up. No one really understands me except her seriously.

Recently, alot of people's true colours are exposing. Im realised im not as patient like before when i was always with Jiahua, i always accept people for who they are and i expect them to. One of my principles of life is: Treat people the way you want others to treat you. But nooooo.. The people i know recently are always judging people and do not know who to put themselves in their shoes. SELFISH. I really don't understand how can people be so self-centered and all the care is about themselves. Jesus.. Vicious world~

PS: I hate people who judge me. So if you're not interested, STFU

I need to boost my self esteem

Had our first POLITE game today. Bench warmer literally, but i got over it. I'm gonna train harder and i wont quit. Prove those who thought i'll quit soooon that i can be better!! It was really demoralizing and all during the friendly match but thanks to Alex, he motivated alot and it changed my mind ^^ Thanks yo!

He wanted to come over and watch the match today with SP but he lost his way :( He was so near yet so far. However! MY LOVELY BABIES CAME INSTEAD AND IT TOTALLY CAUGHT ME BY SURPRISED! I had no idea they were comingggggg. Especially Jiahua who pretended to forget i had match. HAHAHHAHA LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Ethel Adora and Jiahua !! (L) (L) (L) Made my day!

Trained back with Jiahua and suddenly i had the appetite to eat so went to have late dinner. Once again, i feel fat :( KFC for lunch toooooo. I need to run!!! -.- Thank god im ball-ing with Adam Andy Amos and Jiahua tmr during my 3hr break (Y) WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!! Its been so long since i last played with them :( Excited* If only Seng Cheong could join us tooooo..

& after much thoughts.. I guess i've looked at the overview and the odds.. I suppose i've decided what to do. Im really tired being the one forever chasing. I wanna be chased too you know :( I cannot just replace someone who has lived in your heart for so long. & if time will tell, let me know when the time comes... Im seriously tired. About 1year ago, i was in a similar situation and its happening all over again. WHY DOES THIS KIND OF SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN ON ME....

Exactly how im feeling :(

Color Test - Results

Your Existing Situation Feels her position is threatened or not properly recognized by others and feels defensive. Determined to go after her goals despite her fear of bringing conflict upon himself. Your Stress Sources "Current problems are seen as dangerous and threatening. she is angry a the thought she will have to continually put off her own goals for the time being, leaving her feeling powerless to change things. she feels used, overwhelmed, and exhausted at the demands placed on her. " Your Restrained Characteristics "Feels she is getting less than she deserves for all her hard work; however, she makes no effort to change things and tries to make the best of the situation." Emotionally distant even from those closest to her. Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity. Your Desired Objective "Has too many problems and difficulties in her life at the moment, causing reckless and foolish decisions to be made. she needs to find a better escape before she causes her own self-destruction." Your Actual Problem "Feeling a lack of energy, she does not wish to be involved in further activity or give in to demands. she is feeling powerless causing her stress, agitation, and irritation. she reacts by becoming the victim and feeling as if everyone is out to get her. Demands with annoyance that she needs to get her own way."

Moral support

Sometimes I wish i could just pull away..

Im so tired from everything that has happened lately. I need strength. I need someone to be there who is able to understand, give me advises, hug me when there are no words for consolation, and not judge me :'(

Poly life is so far the toughest i'm going through. Who said it will be the most memorial time of my life? Who said it was gonna be easy? Who said your best friends will be found there? Bull shit seriously. Probably it was just me facing all these problems. Or and i highly believe it is my personality. I dontknow. I feel so vex everytime i go home, cause everytime im outside, im putting up a front. (Im alright, im okay, dont worry and to sum it all up with a smile) ...

I really miss the days before i entered TP. Anyway, at least im happy to know i have Jiahua Alyssa Ethel Adora Felicia.. Without them, i probably would have just died.

I love chompchomp. Never get bored with you around

Yesterday was my last day of work. Grown quite attached to it and the people there for like 3 months (: they are nice people. I guess i can't just kick the habit of folding clothes everyday and start writing notes the following day. Yes, school starts TODAY!!! :O I havent had the chance to parteeeey during my holidays or chill much :(

This 3 months, from the beginning of my study break, so many things happened, alot of self relection done and deciding on new targets. Drifted from all my friends except Jiahua, YY and my collegues.. Felt really guilty for not being there for Ethel during her down days and Adora + Alyssa's O level days as well. Im a horrible friend :/

I don't know what happened to me this holiday but my mindset on alot of stuff has changed. For the better or for the worst im not sure. One thing im sure is that, my personality has changed. Moved on from my past and challenged myself to a new future. I don't want it yet i can't help it. My heart is screaming : Put yourself in other's shoes. Im in another state of dilema =/ Plus, im not even sure what im feeling. Its suffocating and insecure and wrong. I should serious fuck myself -.-

Okayokay, i shall think about it anymore. Not gonna help anyway. school has started and my engine is ready to fight the next war. Hopefully the engery doesn't just die out halfway through :( Got Psychology for my CDS and i've decided not to change it. Im gonna try to at least get a B for it! I swear i want my GPA to be 3.0 at least!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~


Got a new haircut for the new sem! :):) rash decision but im pretty happy w it . I can bathe faster and lesser shampoo used too! ^^ Hahaha. I should buy a headband for training (Y) Alright, i should prepare for school now starts at 4pm and i'v gotta leave house like 2.45 -.- Disadvantage of studying far from where you live..

Don't want to be just another of one of your ex

Tmr is finally my off day! :) My legs seriously needs a break man. Its either working/basketballing/shopping/walking.. I really hope it doesn't get any bigger. LOL!

To sum up the week:

- Bball camp on Monday and Tuesday.

- LOST MY FREAKING NEW BBALL SHOES. (Used only 3times!) _|_

- Ran 4.8km during the camp. I wish i have the habit of waking up early every morning and run this distance. I'd be SOOOOOO THIN! :(

- Workworkwork. I like the sense of satisfaction when i manage to persuade customers to buy stuffs :P

- No time to meet YY at all! ZZZZZ...

- Met up with Kuien Shili and Ivy for lunch during our break. All working in town ^^

- Spent quite alot on my new CK Bag and a DIY gift.

- Offically broke.

I can't wait for tmr! I am gonna do all the things i like tmr! Meet YY (Like finally), Buy a new bball shoe +shoe bag, Basketball session in the morning with Webber and babe :D:D But training in the evening abit reluctant. Need to part early... Sighs* I wish i had more time.

Ohyea, gotten my results for the sem already. Its damn disappointing. Why is it that i studied my ass out and know my stuff well yet others who didnt study much can get better than me? Im not trying to aim anyone here but seriously, i hate it when this happens. I am happy for them but sometimes, humans are still self-centered right? Its seriously unfair. I dont get the results for what i work for. Its it just me or my useless brain. I wanna be someone and not just some bimbo who isn't smart :/

Kill me

I want a family that is able to see what i like and support me.
Not pour me cold water and say im wasting my life doing useless things.
I want my family to encourage me if i fall and not say i suck..

My heart and brain are my devil and angel

Heyall! Missing in action recently. Been busy with work and partying i suppose :X Did not follow my schedule accordingly to how i have planned it -.- Ohmygosh, i don't even know where to start.

16Sep- After work, planned to head over to Boiler Room at St James to celebrate Car's belated birthday with the Ck people. But... I couldn't get in. To admit, i was seriously damn disappointed and sad. I wanted to go in so badly. YY tried his best, but th bouncer was too strick :/ Had to go cab back in the end.

Come to think about it now, i feel bad pushing you away, but i had to control myself. I feel horrible whenever i think about your girlf :( Even if i could turn back time, i think i will do the same thing :/






17Sep- Supposingly, after work i should have headed to camp, but... I went Scape for Club instead :/ Yes, of course its with Jiahua (L) Had one hell of a time! The wait to enter the stupid club was FUCK UP seriously! I'll never go there again. Super unorganised. Nearly wanted to backout halfway if it wasn't for babe's persistence (Y) Thats the reason why we click.

After we entered which was nearly midnight, we danced for awhile but it feels weird dancing soberish. Hence, heading to our usual hangout bar to have a couple of rinks before heading back. Decided to try shots. JAGERBOMB! We were being chickens, so just order one for each of us and got the vodka that YY introduced to me :D

Who knew! Halfway thru, a middle aged guy approached us saying he would like to offer us his reminding whisky in the bottle. No, its not Chivas. So we were like, why not if its free right. Of course we did worry if it was doped. But his friend was a female so chances are... 50-50 i suppose. Hahaha. We drank it plainly on the rocks, about 4 cups each and woahhhhh~ We couldn't take it anymore. Its like 40% alright! &&&& and still called another round of Jagerbomb for us and even paid for us! LIKE WHAT~~~!!!! So yeaaaaa, free drinks. But, first time in my life. I AM ANNOUNCED DRUNK!! Holy smokes, we had to get out, so we told the guy we were meeting someone.

I don't think anyone will be interested to know the after-drinking-effect. So i guess i'll just stop here. Had the worst hangover the next morning over at babes house :O

18Sep- Still having slight hangover from the day before, headed home to freashen up and met up with babe, dick, Kevan and Joshua for our alumni BBQ :) It was a random BBQ but quite a number turned out. My first BBQ not eating anything. Seeing him.. The way he talked.. I guess, we are really history, you won't even look back. I should have gotten over you sooner. Now, being like an idiot still missing you so badly when i was drunk. WTF~





ANYWAY!! Went over to Orchard to meet up with YY, promised to acc him to celebrate his friend's birthday at a Thai Disco. At first i didnt know what to expect, but his friends were all friendly and accommodating :) Alsoooooo!! ITS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE SEEING SO MANY MARTEL IN FRONT OF ME!! They were crazy enough to open 9bottles of it for the whole night (Y) I am so proud of myself for not being dead drunk. Just tipsy i guess... But idk why i still can't remember some stuffs O.O

I guess, these are the few exciting updates for last week. This week is all just work, training and hanging out. I miss JIAHUA ADORA ETHEL ALYSSA FELICIA ttm! :( Friendly matches are starting soon. Gonna need to buck up and go for training regularly to catchup! Results are out tmr tooo!! OMG LA! I totally forgot about it!!!!!! -.-
GOSH!!! ALL THE BEST EVERYONE ^^

Unlucky aura never fails to fall on me

Its the exam period now for all poly students i suppose. Except DESIGNERS~ Damn~ :( Just completed my POM paper on Monday and i guess it was manageable, only couldn't remember some stuffs and applied the wrong thing a question which caused me a lot of marks! _|_

Not forgetting my Marketing paper today. Let me tell you guys something really dumb and i guess i could suicide -.- The day before today, I went over to starbucks over at Town to study ECONS. I thought today is gonna be ECONS! WTF RIGHT!!!!!! Elvina reminded me while i was online and FML SERIOUSLY~! It was already coming midnight!!! _|_ _|_ _|_ I cried as if more den one person in my family died -.- (Touch Wood) I called babe ( she was busy watching her Gossip Girls) and told her about it crying so badly... She was so patient, telling me to chill~ Managed to chiong-ed to memorize 9 chapters (while crying and shivering) I was fucking scaredddddd!!!! I had no idea how i did it. But thank god! i studied all the chapters before already. If not i would definitely not be able to make it today :) It was seriously a close shave....

My brain is exhausted. Filled with last minute Marketing. My mind wont absorb anymore Econs. I think/hope/pray that they are permanent in my brain now :(:( ! I dont wanna fail !! 60% siol~ Gosh!

Ohyes, i forgot to thank YY here! He bought me a muffin and gave me his candy :) I think he knows food energizes me :P Accompanied me after his work for awhile too. So nice right! ^^ Talking about food. I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT!!! I FEEL FAT EVERYWHERE! MY THIGHS, FACE, STOMACH, ARMS!!! I need to exercise - run, swim, lift weights, dance, basketball!!!! Anyone wanna volunteer to do it all with me? :P Besides babe of course.

Alrights, gotta rest soon for tmr's paper. Hopefully i can do it! GOODLUCK EVERYONE! (L)(L)(L)

Heartache

I happened to read condolence messages on Jolene's FB about her grandparent. & i began wonder, how does it really feels. Not like i wanna experience it. But both my grandma has passed on and idk why i dont feel anything.

I remember the day my dad called me last year when i was having school saying my grandma has left us, Yes, i was in shock, but somehow it wasnt to the extent that i cried and ran home kinda thing. Instead I was just like : OMG?! Are u serious? I asked about the details and hung up. Yup, thats about it. Am i being heartless or?

Frankly, I wasn't close to my grandma to begin with. Her eyes only had my bro and even on her deathbed, she ignored me.. Sometimes i wish my brother and i are close to till we have endless topics together. There was once, we took the same bus and train together to different destination. We had nothing to talk about.. There was awkward silence~ It shouldnt be this way! Hes my brother yet... (sighs) Same goes for my parents, I cant seem to open up to them anymore. For example, i talk about a recent stuff im into or something to catchup, they will just pour me a bucket of cold water saying its a waste of time and i should concentrate on my studies..
How am I to communicate with them?

Sometimes, its really tiring and torturing. Its even worst then maintaining a tiring relationship. I guess im done whining~

Dance your heart away

Finally im gonna upload a post with pictures! My camera hasn't been put to use lately :(

Teacher's day performance back at ChongBoon Sec! Hahahaha. I've been going back too recently :P All of us had to do our own makeup + hair and come up with our outfit. never really had such experience before. Last year's performance with 4E3 was enjoyable but there were loads of problems. This year's was really cool! Made more new friends and the outcome of the performance should be commendable as we only had like 2 offical and 1 private practice? :D



















Ohyes, i've stop working for the time being before exams. Need to like concentrate. Im lagging behind :/ Gonna miss my cute anonnying collgeues :) EXAMS IN 5DAYS! "/

Going beyond your abilities, brings satisfaction

Been really busy lately. Sacrificed most of my social life for work and studies. I feel extremely drifted from my TP clique. Missed the flea with them and meetups :X Im really sorry guys! :( Recently, decided to dance for Teacher's Day with Jiahua Satya and Jk. Most of them couldnt make it. I have to say.. I am not really enjoying myself for this dance but hope it gets better :) I am not sure of the steps still and the date is closing. Im worried. Not to forget my studies, Im EVEN MORE WORRIED! I promised myself, i wont let my job affect my performance in my studies!

Working at CK is really enjoyable i must say :) Friendly people, cute guys and good pay? Hahahhaah! The only thing is, its pretty slack and long hours. Other than that, I suppose its all alright ^^

Ohyes, surprisingly, there is nothing troubling me since the start of work. I have my aims and I intend to reach it. Although my family isn't supportive of me working and dancing.. I'm hoping to prove them wrong. I mean, may it be basketball/dance, I enjoy what i'm doing and I don't find it a chore nor its tiring. For it, I'll find time for them. I told my mum, i may not be the best basketball player nor a flexible dancer that you'll go WOW at but i enjoy what im doing. Its like a form of relaxation for me. Although it stresses me out sometimes and I will look down on myself but at times, it brings the best of out me too. When I exceed what i can do. I feel a sense of satisfaction there :)

When the worst and the best come together

Today is a SUAY DAY! I swear it is -.- Let me explain the details :

First; I woke up just on time and knew i was gonna be early. Head for the showers and WTF? THE AMOUNT OF WATER COMING OUT FROM THE TAP IS LIKE DRIZZLE -.- I took freaking 25mins just to bathe :S & therefore, i was late.

Next, I flagged a cab from afar and it was those big cabs with a starting fare of 3 bucks with extra charge. Drove all the way to my workplace already and FUCK?! I FORGOT TO BRING MY WALLET AND I DON'T HAVE CK'S NUMBER OR ANYONE FROM THERE'S NUMBER T CALL TO INFORM THEM THAT I'LL BE LATE/ BORROW MONEY FROM THEM FIRST -.- Not to mention its only the second day of my work. For that moment, i wanted to just call babe and asked if i could go over her house but i knew i was gonna be irresponsible. So, the CAB DRIVER DROVE ME BACK HOME WITH THE RUNNING METER -.- Ran upstairs to take my wallet and the cab fare summed up to 20bucks plus -.- FUCKING WASTE MY MONEY. IM OFFICALLY BROKE AGAIN?!

Theres more, when i just reached CK and settled down, they ask me to go to th tailor room which is located at Forum. Its okay but i forgot how to sign in and kena scolding by the aunty -.- NB!

Also, after lunch, i was told to photocopy some stuff at Club21's headquater office at some place i had no idea where it was. They describe the place to me but i still got lost -.- Not mention, IT WAS POURING OUTSIDE! The umbrella was damn small and i'm wet (feet, pants, shirt and hair) Took me 53mins to get back ://////

But after that, it got better. Babe came over to find me! Had wanton meeeee :D:D Got a bigger portion cause i was starving!! Pineapple fried rice for lunch with Yu Yang wasn't enough :( I eat more than him -,- I feel fat* zzzz

Anyway, babe made my day really. We chat non stopped! :D From school to guys to old days to jokes to loads and loads of stuff (L) Her tumblr about me, awwwww i was damn touched too. I really can't do without her man! I think she is my other half. LOL! IM STRAIGHT PEOPLE* Dont misunderstand. Just feel that, shes all i need. Non of my boyfriend can ever replace her or match her. If there is someone out there like her, i would know he is the ONE! :D

Passion

Hey ya'll ! I've started work and thanks to Kuien, I got an excellent job at CK Mens :D Awesome staff most importantly and good pay (Y) I like my job regardless of the long hours. Hopefully i can cope with my studies and I enjoy what im doing so i'm not gonna feel tired :):)

Had dance practice on Sat for Teacher's Day at CBSS :D Awww i miss dancing and im glad that im gonna work with the same people and a couple of juniors :D I hope theres time to learn 2 songs! I've decided, im gonna save up and learn street jazz or maybe something else! Im gonna find the one that suits me! Hiphop, i love the style and all but i really cant get the feel and strength out :/ Sighs* Im not giving up! Theres bound to be something out there thats suits me.

Study-basketball-work-dance.. I'm loving what i do now and i'm definitely gonna stick to it :D Who needs men!

No room for regrets

Every morning girls wakeup and anticipates a good morning text sent by their boyfriends but for me, when i wake up, i don't feel any emptiness now as before, you never once sent me a good morning text. Prolly once. But it was always only good night :( You never wake up earlier than me and always slept later than me..

When guys ask me out and had everything planned and paid for, i feel weird, like i'm supposed to pay for own meal/movie and all. When guys have a week filled of activities like me and dont have time to hangout, i feel weird too. It used to be just me having a hectic life..

Sad to say, I'm not exactly over you and you are still part of my habit. But I guess our differences are too wide and my personality is probably too dominating so yes it was a right choice. Anyway, everytime or most of the time we talk, we quarrel. I do miss you though..

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I've only done so little revision this week and i'm starting work soon (this coming saturday) Really gotta balance my time and sacrifice social and play time if i wanna work :/ I really gotta buck up!!

Went for K session some time ago with TP clique :) Was a horrible day to begin with as my results for accounting is confirmed.. Hide my feelings and at the end of the day, i suppose i got over it and decided to work harder for the rest. Im not gonna waste my life regretting. There is no time machine which i can start all over anyway. The support from my friends too made me feel alot better (L)





Just gonna upload some. The rest are on my facebook! :D

Also, went to watched fireworks with my girls on Monday! We totally had the National Day mood. Hehe! Put tattoo on our skin that says "NDP 2010" hahahahha! It was fun. Adora even brought the light up Singapore flag-clapper thing! HAHAH!!
We walked alot that day I tell you!
Suntec-Marina Bay Sands Mall-Marina Square-Merlion-Esplanade. Not to mention walking around the area. HAHAHAH! Luckily i wore my fake vans. TEEHEEE (Y)














Oh yes, and went for my bro's SMU CONVOCATION at Resrts World Sentosa ytd. WOW THE PLACE WAS AWESOMEEEE!! (Y) No boyf to bring me go unfortunately.. :( Still hv friends!! LOL. Anyway, seeing all the uni students.. i seriously envy them. I really dont know if i can get into one ;/ My grades are bad....






I love my dress that day so.. camwhored!! (L)