True friends are hard to come by

Met up with my lovely girls yesterday for dinner! :) They never fail to make me feel like exams are over and forget ALL my misery! (hearts) The photo isn't yesterday's but its the only recent photo i have with them :(

We talked so much but didn't eat as much as expected. Stupid gastric came to hunt me again in the afternoon when i was studying with Wanzhuang and Charaine at the airport. Although i didn't finish the paper i was suppose to complete, but i found it productive for m even though i was teaching them (Y) I learn as well (: * Charaine was so sweeeeeet to buy me a hot milo when she said she was going to the washroom! (AWWWWWW~)

Anyway! Im looking forward to the end of my exams and start working! I want a new crumpler and TOMS !

Fitting in

My blog is so dead. But i'll still come here to rant if i have to.

Exams are round the corner and Macroeconomics paper is on Friday! I really really really scared i can't get my A back due to my projects that pulled me down :( Im really aiming for at least a 3.2 GPA this semester to pull everything up.

Did serious mugging just now at Starbucks alone. Jiahua couldn't join me as she is rushing her P1 as well. Its killing her. Re-studied Business Statistics and it killed me! I really can't find the critical for n > 30!! No matter how hard i try, i just cant! The notes didn't state and im going INSANEEEEEEEEE!!!! :'( I feel so useless and all my friends arent able to help too cause they are all last time muggers but somehow they still do well. Life is UNFAIR!!! :( Im like stucked at 2 chapters becus of it.

I called Jiahua to whine, the moment i say " babbeeeee im so stressed up!" I cried. LIKE IN PUBLIC LITERALLY! I don't do that often. I feel so eeffing useless :/ & all that constant reminders for me to stay strong was practically gone in a split second!
I remember when i was attached, when i had times like this, it made no difference if i had a boyfriend or not. One just laughed, the other just did not know what to say. So im basically facing this on my own again. At least have Jiahua's encouragements.

Last night, Xuanru just msn-ed me and just typed " Jiayou!" I was so touched! :) To me its an energy booster. He is right, less than a B = fail. So i mustn't fail! I've worked so hard throughout the semester and i won't like this main exam affect me. Im getting so tired*

Alright! I feel better now :) Im heading back there to study again. Its really productive for me.

Last Saturday, went to my OCBC cycle briefing and celebrated Bruce's birthday. Someone i knew since Pri6 but its the first time celebrating his birthday! The OCBC cycle thing was boring but i met lots of people there :) They are all nice and mature. Even a 16 yr old canoe racing girl is so much more mature than most of my friends in poly! Played card games to bond among ourselves. They are alll so humorous! Not forgetting, theres a cute guy in my crew!

The birthday celebration was nothing special for the birthday boy but it was really sweet! His friends surprised him at a romantic place at Khatib and although i knew only the bday boy and Jiahua, i still had fun! & it was boring at all! I cant believe they are from TP design ! First look and you will think they are malay ahbengs! Hahahahhahah!! They prepared drinks and played drinking games of course! They were all so fun-loving and cute!

Bruce was nice enough to lend me his singlet to wear cause my top was SOAKING! :) Jiahua wanted to play the water badly~ I was reluctant cus i had makeup on. But got tempted and played anyway :P & YES MY MAKEUP SMURGED!!! AND I LOOKED LIKE MULAN!

Just like that!
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA It was HILARIOUS!! & once again i feel like i should belong to design. Or perhaps its just my group of friends ;/
Not that im being choosy over who my friends are. Just that I can't find a place i fit in.

Sucks to be me

Hi!
Well, there was this exchange program to Finland. I really wanted to go! Its like for 18days and i would be able to complete not one, but TWO CDS!! :O But.. Afterall, it is an Europe country so the expenses and administrative fees + hostel etc are mad pricey. At the same time, HOW OFTEN DO WE GET TO HAVE AN EXCHANGE PROGRAM TO FINLAND!!!! :(

Unless i am able to raise 2k during my 1 and a half months holiday, which is HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE! :/ Sighs* My dad says if he allows me to go, my bro would want to go for his Aussie trip too. HE HAS BEEN SO MANY ALREADY :( Why can't i have a chance. Furthermore, i'm going there to study :(((( He is still going to Australia anyway.
Dad says, savings not enough. I don't think i'll have a chance to get any subsidy from the school :(

Im in dilemma ~ Anyone has a high paying job to intro to help me?

Never too late to improve!

Really havent been updating lately. Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr has officially taken over me. Projects have been hell especially Psychology. Its been CRAZY! -.- The other projects are done with my clique so i guess its pretty much not as stressful but i have to admit i didn't put in as much effort as i expected myself to put :/ Guilty*

Anyway, I got quite irritated with someone recently. I have no idea how i endured all her crap for so long. I probably just didnt want any conflict and believed that its just her personality. But hey! Its getting WAYYYYYYY OUT OF HAND. For now, i guess im just gonna turn away from all this shit. Being alone is no longer an issue. I supposed im immune. _|_

Just got back from a dinner with Xuanru. I havent met him for about a year i guess! Since we were separated from sec school. I really didn't regret meeting him today. Only now, i realise who are my true friends. Its like i really forgot how i can be MYSELF. The uber high and full of shit me. Yes, only with Jiahua i am able to do so. Otherwise.. Nope, not really. Of course apart from my usual lovely girls. I really havent forgotten those out there who really truly cares about me.

He has really motivated me to work harder than i am now. His class is so competitive that there is no chance for him to slack. His GPA is like 3.67 last sem! I AM SO ENVIOUS!!!!! & NP standard is pretty high! Now i really horrible, the standard here isn't as high but im still getting shitty results. Frankly, when we were having heart-to-heart talks just now. I felt that, omg yeaaaa, actually frankly, i havent put in my all yet. I still hv time to go shopping, watch tv all that shit! If i really want good grades. I should be really studying! & not just by completing my tutorial and do a few notes and claimed that I HAVE STUDIED for th day.

Yep! I have only waken up from my lala land now. From now on! I am going to study harder than before! That want-to-do-well flame hasn't gone off since i started working in CK. (Y) Lets all do well together! :D Well, at least for those wants to do well! :):) Alright, Wanted to watch tv today but change of plans! I SHALL DO PSYCHOLOGY NOW!