If You Were Me

Lately, i'm indecisive.

Tuesday
Late for school for the 5th time =.= Loads of file to arrange. Mdm how was throwing people's incomplete Phrase books and files. Touchy indeed ;X ts a logn dayyy, I dont remember the details of what happened that day. I'll use the computer once a week now. Insufficent time. Its been 754112379 weeks since i last played dota -.- I think i forgot how to play. GOSHHH~

My bitch has been so busy lately tooo. Balancing studies boyf and play at the same time. We hardlu spend after school time together too T.T I miss those days :[ Even a trip to starbucks and a haircut gotta be delayed till next next week. Sighs* This explains how busy everyone is.

At night after pig's detention, we had dinner out (: Had the crave to eat fish and chips x.X But i end up being influence by pig again. Hahahas. So we ate MeeHoonKuey ^^ Hehs. The usual routine ;D Went to our usual hangout but this time the shelter was blackout :[ Hahahas. We could hardly see what we're eating ;P So one pig's handphone light awhile till it got too distracting. Ha!




Tried on my fav tank for the first time ^^ WOOOOOOO, I LOVE IT :D I notice people staring. HEHS! I tihnk i was just thinking too much. hahahahhah
2 mosquito attack that day. PIG ATTRACTS MOSQUITOES ;O RAWR! HAHAHHAS. k la. Im just kidding ;D
Went back at the same time ;D Amazingly, i could go back so late these few days ;X

Wednesday
I was expecting to have detention ;x But my turn has yet to come (; Its a good thing. carried loads of things that day. Expecting to study in school after lessons but changed of plans. Right after school, had a short SI meeting with Jas and Mel. Oh well, theres nothing to hide anymore. I just wanna do my job well now (:

Rushed home got a refreshing bath and all. Pig came over to my house here to study. No play really! Hard to believe but its trueee :D Taught him alittle mole calculation and he taught me physics. He sure absorbs things FAST o.O I cannot catch up with him sial. Lols (:

Although he didnt get to learn what he wanted to know what he wanted to know. But i think its still okay ;O Guilty* Hahas. My teaching sucks. Lol. After all that studying, played computer ^^ The creepy hotel game he was afraid to play. MUAHAHAHAH! His reactions are superb FUNNNNNAAYEEEE cans! LAUGHS* :D

Went off to slack at th park. Took crazzeeee photos. I look horrid in those pics :[ My screwed up hair. He look so nice can ;x AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~
Heres a few. Very random pics of me.





Went home real late :S Hahas, Laughters~ the last time i really had a hearty one was with my bitch (3 Hehs!

Thursday
3 TESTS! Ohmygawwwwd. Stressing my brain out~ The depreciation on th first period was TOTALLY DRAINING MY ENERGY OUT! I was forcing my to recall the format ;x Lols =X I guess i can still get an A1 but not a high one. Sighs*

Chiong-ed for the last minute notice short chinese idioms test. Only our class have. That Xu claims that we're in th first class and we have th ability to learn more things -.- Heyyy~ My chinese ain't that gooood kays. Lols.
A confirm full marks for the test. hahas, We kinda shared alittle answers ;P

During lunch break, did a last revision for the EM Wave and sound with my bitch at Level 3 study areaaa :D So windy thereee. Hahas. ZhenFeng and CYX happened to pass by so acc-ed us. Ohoh, bitch was feel very depressed today- over her weight! She usually isn't like that. But now i know th reason why it got so sensitive to her ;P

Hey girl: WE LOVE YOU! Your weight isn't important. You can just shed it off. Comeon, if we judge people by its appearance, I'd be a totally screwed one here. ^^ Cheerup kays. Lenard loves you more than u know :D

After school, studied with her for around 2 hours at the same place (; We're too broke to visit starbucks, I MISS SHUAI GE AND THE COOFFEE THERE! Sobs* I did maths till i was going insane! You can ask my bitch :O I was totallly whining and stone-ing! hahahas.
& my phone was dying on me.
In order to regain alittle of my energy. We packed up after 2LONG HOURS of mugging and went to the toliet to dance ^^ My bones are getting unflexible if i dont practice. Hehes.

I slept like friggin early that night. I was intending to take a short nap after chatting with pig on th phone. I did but definitely not a short one ;x Pig tried ot wake me up 2twice, but he see me so tired he let em sleep till morning =D HA!

Friday
Due to the early sleep, I haven't packed my bag, my uniform. So rushed! But too late already. So kup-ed cab with pig to school ;x Thanks to him, i could save 2bucks ^^
Thanks uh :DDD

We were earlyyy! had too much sleep last night so i kinda paid full attention for every lesson including chinese o.O Even chem! Believe it! Wow, come to think about it now, i did her work! Lols. What had gotten into me. Wahahahha

NP, drills was okay, held on to the drill cane for the first time! A different feeling indeed. Had a little chat with MrAng and Mel. I have to admit they're stressing me out. My shoulders seemed ot have gotten heavier. & i know myself very well that im not a good role model. I'll chnage. I promise (:

After that, i didnt feel like talking anymore. When i meet pig at night for dinnner. I wasn't myself. I had the fake smile upon me again. Except for a veryvery embarssing moment. I was eating chicken chop for dinner :D

Takeaway so i had to use plastic fork and knife. Okay so i had 2 forks and a knife. End of the meal, th 2 fork i had, had 0 teetths left! HA! So paisehhhh cans. Hahahs. End up pig gotta cut eveyrthing up for me. ;x Got too lazy. Hehs!

Slacked at the fitness corner. Super breezy over there. Didnt feel like leaving that place if i could. had to break the news to yl that i wont be going for tmr's appointment. I was think for a week about this. Imma screwed, i know.

On my way back, when i was with pig, came across A FLYING COCKROACH! LOLs!!!!!! My weak hearttt! Nearly came out~ And while i was walking home, didn't take a bus cause my card had no money le. I SAW ANOTHER 2 !!!!!!!! FAINTS* Imso glad i didnt had a herat attacked. N lucky i had pig talking on the phone with me. I TOTALLY SCREAMED! Got people in front somemore. So paisehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ =/

Saturday
Tuition till around 2.30pm. A rest day today for me.














Well, if you were me
Would you push you?
Would you turn the other cheek and forgive you?
Would you cry out?
Would you break down?
Or would you wait for karma to come around?
Would you give up?
Would it be enough to make you never ever wanna be in love?
What would you do, what would you do?
If you were me would it be through?
I don't know what's left to talk about but
I found it hard to leave
Without some closure

Cause In Your Eyes, I'd Like To Stay

I'm soooo BOREDDDDD now!
I feel like stone-ing
I feel like eating fish n chips [Today's crave]
I feel like slacking with my addiction all day ;x
I feel like studying yet Im lazy
I feel like sleeping
Theres a million things i wanna do! :[

Its a hawt hawt day! I woke up late :X My phone was slient and my alarm didn't ring! Lucky got Pig's second text den i wake up or else i think I'll need to go school already. ZZ! Time was 6.54am when i saw th text =/ hai! My maid has went back for GOOOOD! But th household chores gotta be split up among all of us. But i think my bro is the one with nothing to do ;x

Dad is at home to feed th dog i won't have to rush home to feed her. OHHHMYYYYGAWDDDDZ! I needa bathe her tmr again :x AWWWWW~ lazy. Lols. Hahs. O-M-O is coming in a week! Gotta buck up! Seeing everyone else striving and Im slacking makes me feel unconfortable. THIS WEEK ONWARDS! More mugging :D

MrWong is weirdd today too :S Hate it when he is moody. The stare he has, angers people? Ya! Definitely. ZZ! Long ddayy today, plus maths remedial! 2 Times a week now ;x YAWNSS*
After a HECTIC day (: Johnson and pig waited for me ^^ Went to eat hokkien mee. Hahahs.
Never felt nicer ;P I actually managed to survive till dinner ;O Didnt eat lunch n recess eh! AMAZING EH! ;D hahahs. For Cheryl its ONCE IN A BLUE MOON ^^ Hehs

Slacked with pig awhile before i went back (: Im so lazyyy to do work! But still i have to T.T AWWWWWWWW! My fingers are wobbly now. Typing seems to have a high difficulty too ;x
Nothing much today -.- ITS THE USUALLLLLLL~

The smile I'll have naturally with my addiction ;O
Ha!
HORRIBLE HAIR!
SIAOOO ZHAR BO! :DDDD


O-F-F-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y~
rawrrrr!

Ecstasy, thats what you are

Right -.- Its another week post ;x Bear with me readers ;x

Monday
Hmmmm, let me think what happened? I have a very vague memory of it. OHOH! I had my Poa Bank recon test. Hope i get full marks ^^ My next problem would be th depreciation one ;x GAH! Class ended late as usual. After lesson, made Chua Pig and johnson at the bball court. We were too lazy to play. So pig did his homework and we spent most of th time chatting. Goshhhh~ & Johnson turned me off :[ Hahahahs!
He tried raping Yx. Hahas.
It consist of poking, kissing and stripping? =/ *My eyes* =.=

Managed to capture only one.

& see this dumb Pig, no matter how many times he trows, the ball will hit the same place. He was trying to get th ball over the board ;x Spot th ball. Hahahs!

A makeover for pig (: So he wont kena caught for hair th following day :D My masterpiece -.-

Johnson too [:

Tuesday
Nothing much that day. Only that, during CE lessons, Mdm How off-ed th fan for 2 friggin periods ;x DAMN HOT! Dason didnt want to put on his uniform, diedie wants to wear his P.E shirt -.- MdmHow is very touchy these days. & our class just won't listen to her. Sighs

We were suppose to come out with a skit or poem regarding th Total Defence thing, most of th groups didnt do. But our group did.



So we go everything planned out but end up she started asking some people out and talking to them soon, we could go off.
A total weird day ;x ZZ
I didnt do any homework that day i know x.x I only studied for Geog alittle. Its so hard to absorb. Chatted with Pig all th eway. Lucky got him summarise for me. But i didnt memorised the details so i tihnk im gonna fail th test ;x Its a slacky day for me.

Wednesday
Tiring day :[ Screwed geog test. Had NPCC right after school. Cant even go for my Chem retest. Z! DANGG -.- Thought i could play baskteball for awhile but had to report in full uni so stares in envy ? :X Yup. HA! Did drills with th sec3s.
I've still yet to adapt to them, sighs* I really do need to work on my commands if i wanna continue being SI.

Just wanna let someone know if you're reading this. You want it sure. I can just totall give it to u and tell th heads I dont want it. I wantt it but i don't need it. KEPISH? _|_ & lets see how well u fair it bitch. I don't need your pretendence here alright.

Gets on my nerves. If it wasnt a need to work together. I'll long ago talk things out with u. Oh whatever~ Had a long day x.x

Thursday
Its an even longer day. Played basketball during lunch and chinese period ;x Play until forgot about th time. After lessons at 3.30pm, NP cadets in our class had maths remedial. Practised alegbra. Pigg agreed on acc-ing me buy som V.day stuffs and his idea on eating mee hoon kuey mad eme distracted form ym studies. hahahs. Lucky is ending ler ;P Hehs, so rushed on asap once remedial was over ;P

Ate at a very quiet place ^^ ahahs, Thanks! First time eh ;P Go molee there also. AWWWWW, SO CUTEEEEE. fell like cuddling it. ;D His whistling is dman niceeee can! WOW (: Went to meet up with Ryan at hub around 10 to get his NP card so i coudl get a 20% off all NUM items (: Had accompany home after that ;D Hehs.

Friday
No school in th morning (: Met up with Bitch early in th morning (: Ate at prata house! Wheeeee, long time crave cross out :D Saw Dick n wenkang so went over to downtime to say hello. Head-ed to town she wnated to get soemthing for her boyf so acc-ed her ^^ Sighs* Lonelyyyy o.O haha.s Jk









It was still early, the shops arent open yet. So we went Borders to read magazines. Hehs. Save money ^^ We don't have to purchase them now already [: Woohoo. She got top for him. Its prettyy nice. Went over to Heeren NUM to get our party tank. They say no discount! I was so disappointed la. & they say the V.day promo ended ytd. I was like huhhhh~ Got so suay meh.

Still had some time so went over to Far east Flora to get some flowers for ourselves since no one is gonna give us anyway. here it is. Own wrapped ;P
We fell in love with most of th potted plants there too ^^





Went for cross country at NYP after that. The distance wasn't really long but thanks to my sitch moving around killed me. Rawr! I wore a ankle guard which i borrowed from Liyi on my left ankle. So it was strong ^^ But during th run, i didnt see a hump my right left kicked it, weaken my right ankle. I had to stop :X Too pain :[ Having muscleches all over now :X I came in 13 -.- ZZ.
But its alright, complete th race very good ler

Had some problems that day. Freakinq stupid la. Ryan Weiwei Des n wawa came. Ryan n yl.. Hai! *Ryan, u should know me well enough ;x Yup, I did plead u for his sake but i've woken up k. Thanks for ur concern too ^^ *
So after everything, went to Novena square's NUM outlet. Ryan's friend works there so he helped us alittle. He told us th V.day promo was still on. I felt cheated at th heeren outlet ;O LOls

So FINALLY! Jiahua got th one she liked. The party tank with the ' SOCCER' as font and mine is more expensive one which is the Italy one. I LOVE IT AS MUCH ^^ I wanted th canoing/canoe polo de but no size. Z! Hahhas. The colours are nice. basketball one also no size so got this instead ^^ BURNED A HOLE IN MY POCKET ;X Ouchhh~


Went to find pig for a chat after that (: We witness a passionate kiss! WAHAHAHAHAHHA.

saturday
Couldnt attend POA Remedial :[ Too tired. Sorwiiiee piggy ;X Thenthen, had tuition at 12.30pm. Spammed myself with ferero Rochers. Hahahs. Addicted (: & around 4-5 plus, went to Chongboon there to meet Johnson and pig. Ke lian de zhuuuuuuu, i could hardly hear him talk ;P Wahahah! Wanted to acc him see doc but i was late ;x So acc-ed him cut hair instead. Johnson was there already. He bluff me he was gonna be late. Roar!


Johnson's treat ;D TYTY
So i spent my valentine with these people. Johnson accompanied me to Clarke Quay to watch Colin's band performance ^^ Fareez was the vocalist. AWESOME! I LOVE TH SETTING. Its located at ClarkeQuay Cetral's rooftop. I wonder how they manged ot book th place. I work there so long also never go up th rooof before. Hahahhs. Its totally romantic and mad eup with quite a number of primary school mates :D Most of them were from Bishan park sec n YCK sec. Johnson and I were th only ones from CBss ;[ Sadd.






So many couples theree la. Then some sang songs with their girls and kneel before them. WOWWW! They danced too. So sweeet! Envy* I felt like i was in aa whole different world there. Eveyerone's speaks english there. & all th girls wore super high heels and dresses execpt me ;x I didnt expect it to be so formal. I feel our school people are so childish now =/

Lols. Clubbing material. hahas. Chatted some xin shi with johnson, no actually is he chat with me ;P
After everything, Thought we could drop by boat quay to say Hi to Yl they all since they were there. But who knew, they were at downtime there so like wth. Johnson and I were rushing for time so had to go first.

Met up with Pig to pass him his phone and IC. Slack at th fitness corner till 1am lidat. Parents came to fetch me home (:
Its an alrght Valentine for me.

Right right, gotta go study now! Going to meet them again later :D
ADIOSS!

Make Me Smile

HOLY! Its beenuber long since I last update -.- Okayyyy~ Maybe not thattt long. But it feels long. LOL.
I have test almost everyday! & Its like 2 in a day or so. Gosh, and i'm not performing very well for them too. IDK what got into me. FLUNKED ENGLISH LIKE abcdeffff! & E-maths, didn't flunk it but i really know i could have doen wayyy better. Even people that arent studying get better results. What am I then? -.-
Depressed~

4Feb
Hmmm, extremely tiringgg day If i can recall. After a shagggy day of lessons, although i had 3 free periods of art, i still feel tired ;X Jiahua and I went around th school looking for that piggy chua to get my art file and bad luck befalled on us. Misschin caught us for our socks =.= Hahahahs. Quite ridiculous la, she told me to throw Jiahua's socks away then i kept them in my pocket while she wasn't looking. WAHAHA! Its really hilarious :P

A last minute training was planned to reharse for this coming Friday's promotion day. I screwed up even though -.- I had to leave early due to tuition as i went home and rushed out my homework, by the time ken came, YAWNS YAWNS YAWNS! I didnt have any energy for more revising nor school work lo. ZZZ! So *SNORES* till next morning.

5Feb
Hmmmmmm, I wore specs. Nerdy for th day ;D I couldnt adapt to the degree. Ohoh, i quarrelled with that bicth MissLoh. Showed attitude and all. I HATE HERRRR! As much as MdmYick! Rawrrrr* shout shout shout, debated with her during recess time too. Ruined my appetite for th day _|_ LOl, &&& HAPPY BIRTHDAY STELLA!

Nothing much that day ;X PLayed basketball during lunch break. I need 1sec to reac6t that th ball is approaching me. LOL. I needa focus. hahahas. I cant see th ball coming towards me =O Went back with the accompany of Johnson (: Thanks! My bedsheet is totally the cause of my insomina! I cant stop th sneexing outbreak once i lie on my bed. ZZZ! & i really can't sleep. As if millions of things are revolving in my pathetic punie brain. Sheeesh! Geme a break problems! =/

6Feb
My eyes still continue to itch due to sleepless nights. Sighs* I need time to absorb probability. HA! Got my chem paper back. UBER DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF ;X I know i can do better. Geeeesh, I wanna prove that fucking bitch wrong. Had chinese compo test too. I didnt manage to complete it. ffffff~ :( I feel so hopeless. Got a feeling of jumping down a building or something and recover. I need to feel a pinch in my skin. Someone do it for me please x.x

Right after it. Dashed ot the toliet to get changed to our unform and plait our hair. I think its super troublesome to plait our hair la. Why can't we just pin. Z! Plait already more messy luh, all th hair flying our. Especially after wearing beret. WTH La, totally gotta retie into ponytail. Then waste time -.-

Had loads of lectures given by CIs. Hai, we deserve it? Promotion that time. I screwed up when it was my turn. I did EVERYTHING WRONG! I was daydreaming and i wasnt even sure what rank i was getting. When i fell back to squad, it pop-ed in my mind that. OHMYGOOODDDNESSSS! I just recevied the SI rank! WTH? Like how? With my conduct, attitude and all. I was in fact hoping carmen to get it. Cause she could hhhhhandle things better.

Anyway, now that I've got it, i hope i wont anger anyone. I'll do my best in my duties (: JIAYOU CHERYL ANG! :DD I was suppose to be jumping for joy when parade dismissed but instead i bursted into tears whe carmen congrat me :[ It definitely wasnt tears of joy :X Its liek, Im hoping to get th rank, but im not sure if i can do it. yes, its definietly lack of confidence and I don wanna let anyone down. I hate that.

Plus, my studies. Im really really really really-xzx worried that i cant balance everything and flunk my Os. Since apprantly i suck at my studies still. I know no one can help me in this. I think I'll have lesser time watching tv, playing com and all. It has been reduced already "x
Went KFC with Xuan kor and Saiful and Gfriend to celebrate? LOLs.
Hahas, Photos with girlfriend :DD








7Feb
Woke up late. Went for POA remedial at 10am :D Butbut sadly Jiahua had dropped it so no one acc me go. I finally understand BANK RECON! wheeeeee. Whooooot :D Tmr is the test! Im aiming A1 ! Jiayouuuuu.

After it, went hub with dick wenkang n xinyi :D I still had some time before I meet up with CYX anyway. Xinyi and I went hunting for Steela's present. While dicky n wk went to meet yl or a haircut. By 1.30pm, trained down to j8 waited for CYX. ROARRRR! THAT STM DE! LATEEEE. Hahahahs! I was already late, he even later :O Hahahs.
Soooo while waiting, revised depreciation ;X damn its hard to understand.

Acc-ed him to repair is phone. Sheeeesh, i cant believe he actually went to service it for like more than 10 times. WOAH! A phone can really spoil so mnay times meh? LOls, then took a bus down to Downtime. & YOU KNOW WHAT! WE ACTUALLY SIT THE WRONG DIRECTION.

So th bus went to Bishan Interchange! WAHAHAHHAHAHA. I'd be laughing hard whenever i think of that stm pig's actions. Hahahaha! WTH~ So we waited again, for th same bus and its actually th same one we took before. LAWLS! Embarrassing o.O
Anyway, by th time we got to downtime, it was already 3 plus. And that was th time i was suppose to go home. Thought i could still play a game. Anyway its CYX's treat ^^ But no computer so that decided to go goodspeed x.x

On th way, I just alighted and went home :[ SIGHS* i wannna playyyy. zzz
oh btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN! Youre getting oldddd :D Last longggg with your new gf ^^ Sorry i cant make it to your bbq T.T Takecaree*

8Feb
Mum shouted at me this morning. Say we were late for our lunch appointment. So damn tired la. Nan de I can sleep so soundly without disturb. And there goes her annoying voice ;x
Changed th bedsheet. I sleep bette rnow. Its definitely th bedsheet -.= Soooo i havent even makeup finished, she gave me stress by standing at my door giving me 'that' kind of face. So i just anyway and complete it in th car ;x Pro huh -.-

Didnt enjoy lunch. It taste horrible except for th shark fins :D Its pretty delicious [: Went Parkway Parade, mum went Giant and all. I WAS BORED STIFF! So walked around th shops to find a wallet. I needa change mine. Its getting so oldddd. Sheeesh~ & Hunting for my pink headset. Its pretty costly so i might drop th idea :X Guess is having a promo. 40bucks for a wallet. Babe say I shouldnt get it. Yup, i must learn to be thrifty now! ^^

Played basketball with th usual. Ahdun, Shorty siang, fat uncle kel, ChanHorng [idk how to spell] & CYX :D Its ultraaa funny todayy! Off form la today. I couldnt get a ball in today. BAH! :Z Yawns*
Im getting sleepy. Right, its a very very very long post today. I think im gonnnna..
SNOREEEEEEE* Lols


ADIOS bloggers :D

Remorse recovers nothing

Couldn't get to bed last night like usual.
An incident came to my mind.

Listening to piano lullaby cleared my thoughts;
I was reminded of my horrid inconsiderate selfish decision that tore you apart and caused you to be become who you are today.
Others say I wasn't responsible for your current state,
But I think Im largely responsible.

I know i can't take back my words,
I know how much Ive hurt you.
Recalling th scene 5 months back,
I'll never forget how you walk away and I squatted in th classroom in tears.

Sighs*
I've failed as a person, really.
Taking today's tests.
Damn disappointed in myself.
I was so confident and yet..

oh _|_
Random post.
I just needed somewhere to rant.
If left this page if u disagree with my post.

Np tmr plus tuition.
SHAG!