Rolling in the deep

I SUPER REGRET NOT GOING BACK FOR THE LOMBOK BRIEFING YESTERDAYYYYYYYY!!! :(:(
I was supposed to have a briefing for the overseas trip this coming June, after studying at Tamp, i couldn't absorb further so i decided to go look for Jasmine since it was only 4pm and the briefing will be at 7pm.

Jas said to take 67 from interchange and alight when i see a Great eastern building. ETA = 40mins. Around 40mins, i didnt see any building! When Jas texted me, i was already at Lavender, she told me ive missed my stop -.- I was VERY PISSED seriously! I wanted to alight when i see the nearest MRT station or something, BUT NOOOO NON IN SIGHT! The bus was flooded with people and i felt super lost.....

The bus went all the way to where Burger Shack was, and guess what. I found BOTANICAL GARDENS during the ride -.- (Memories much) ANYWAY! Thats not the point, i wanted to get back to school so i didnt dare to anyhow alight and i didn't want to cab just because of some briefing. So i decided, i wont be going already. Super angry with myself. WHY AM I ALWAYS ALWAYS GETTING LOST! Everytime i get lost, i lost something important :/

Who knew~ i ended up at Chua Chu Kang -.- I sat on the bus for freaking 2hrs! I couldn't take it anymore .. Cabbed back with surcharged _|_ WASTED 2HRS OF MY LIFE AND 20BUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought the worst was over, when i was in school today, i was wondering why my friends and lecturers keep reminding me to go see Sam Tan (course manager) privately. I thought he just wanna tell me the details personally or something. Until my teacher told me that they didn't do th groupings ytd cus I WASN'T THERE! THEY WANTED TO APPOINT ME AS ONE OF THE LEADERS!! & my tcher mentioned that, bcus i wasn't there ytd, SAM TAM MIGHT HAVE CHANGED HIS MIND OR SOMETHING !! Like i'll seem like some irresponsible person -.- OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~

Its not about the leader thing i am so concern about, if i successful manage to do well in the role, i would say it will be a plus point in my portfolio next time. My results r shitty already. Need to find all ways and means to at least do well in something right? :/

Sighhhhhhhhhhhh~ I may have just let a goood chance go pass me. I came up with a crappy excuse of having an urgent matter at home :(:( I'll only know tmr. WISH ME LUCKKKKK!!!! (prays)

Swam today! Couldn't perform, muscles are still aching badly after the 7km run. Hahahha, still can't forget that shiok feeling. I should try it again sooooon!! (Y) Night runs are the best!

Alright, gotta head to my notes. HAVE TO MEMORIZE AT LEAST 2 CHAPTERS!! Studying is like running a marathon, pain will befriend us :) JIAYOUUUUU EVERYONE!! :D

To put it nicely, friends. Bluntly, i don't want to talk to you

Spare me PLEASE!!!!!!!

I realise, i only blog everytime when I am troubled. Making it seems like blog post are filled with emo thoughts -.- Idc, i am gonna do another one :(

Exams are next week and I have to admit i am highly affected by the people around me still! May it be friends, or... I SERIOUSLY WANT TO JUST TAKE OUT MY HEART FOR THIS WEEK AND CONCENTRATE FOR ONCE. Not like i cannot focus on my studies or what, but i everytime i go home, i end up with a black face and DO NOT WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE! I shove everyone, and i mean everyone off. Like tell them" Please dont bug me"

People ask me, you go study alone? I am like hmmm, yeaaaaa. In my brain, im thinking : Is there a problem? -.- Is something wrong with me? I prefer to study alone. I feel like i don't have to fake anything. Its just me and my notes.

Aiyaaaaaaaa~ I've become such an introvert. I don't know myself anymore. Said this like a million times. FYI, for people who don't know how i am like before, you will think, "THIS BITCH IS FUCKING WEIRD".

Why is everything so hard... I just wanna be perfect. I really really really reallly really want to just please everyone and be happy while i continue to upgrade myself. i wanna go back to secondary school :( I miss my friends, active me and high self esteem me without faking anything.

I am looking forward to my Lombok trip, but definitely not the company :( Friends don't ditch you when you are in trouble. Or don't even bother to make the effort to look at you and say hi when you just reach school. (I wasn't alone at that time)

Holidays starts on the June10! But........
& the second week, it will be my turn to be overseas.
Just great~

Its just school

School has started and managed to adapt to the new semester after week2. Well, at least thats for school work wise. For friends, I guess i only managed to decide to put everything aside and seriously focus only last night :) I somehow just xiang tong le.

Well, i just thought that, if i want to enjoy my trip to LOMBOK Indonesia, i really have to just forgive and forget. & even if it takes for me to work 10times harder than others to get my desired grades, i will! I AM GOING TO STUDY HARD, EXPERIENCE MUCH AND JUST MAKE FRIENDS :) I can do it i know! (:

Its only week 3 but there is a hell load of things coming in already :( ! & i reallly hate market research! Teachers all guai lan!! & the dumb lab work thing is PBL? WTH -.- Its superrrrr difficult to learn ourselves and we can't even get the software to try it out ourselves. (Jesus! What were they thinking)

Got my pay on Mondayyyyyy!! Yay! It wasn't much as compared to CK last time. But i bought a pair of shoes which is super unexpected!! But i love it omgggggggg!! :):) Of course, he has the same pair too which makes me like it more! Teeehee!!

Overdued photos. I'm just gonna upload a few ^^




Bought this reallly nice headband! Expensive for a hadband~ But it was toooo nice! I couldn't resist it :X

I MISS LOELLE SIM JIAHUA AND LIM JIT KHAI! :(
Ohhhhhh i wannnna watch a movie damnit! My Fast&Furious5, my Thorrrrr~ :/ Funshion! faster come out!

I'm lazy to continue already~ Shall post more this weekend :):)

Pain with sweetness

2 weeks of school have passed and i feeeeel mentally tired. Im sick of pretending im sick of smiling all day while inside of me im screaming. I thought i've settled down and found the right people. However, its back to where i started. Is it so fucking hard to find true friends and not judge?

What's wrong you people? Not happy then say la, don't have to give those ridiculous eyes or behave like the world revolves around u -.- Gimme a break man. Outtalk me if u can. Ready any time any where! Not like i have something to be guilty of.

Thank god for strawberries and Sam today (L) I feeel better already.