Rolling in the deep

I SUPER REGRET NOT GOING BACK FOR THE LOMBOK BRIEFING YESTERDAYYYYYYYY!!! :(:(
I was supposed to have a briefing for the overseas trip this coming June, after studying at Tamp, i couldn't absorb further so i decided to go look for Jasmine since it was only 4pm and the briefing will be at 7pm.

Jas said to take 67 from interchange and alight when i see a Great eastern building. ETA = 40mins. Around 40mins, i didnt see any building! When Jas texted me, i was already at Lavender, she told me ive missed my stop -.- I was VERY PISSED seriously! I wanted to alight when i see the nearest MRT station or something, BUT NOOOO NON IN SIGHT! The bus was flooded with people and i felt super lost.....

The bus went all the way to where Burger Shack was, and guess what. I found BOTANICAL GARDENS during the ride -.- (Memories much) ANYWAY! Thats not the point, i wanted to get back to school so i didnt dare to anyhow alight and i didn't want to cab just because of some briefing. So i decided, i wont be going already. Super angry with myself. WHY AM I ALWAYS ALWAYS GETTING LOST! Everytime i get lost, i lost something important :/

Who knew~ i ended up at Chua Chu Kang -.- I sat on the bus for freaking 2hrs! I couldn't take it anymore .. Cabbed back with surcharged _|_ WASTED 2HRS OF MY LIFE AND 20BUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought the worst was over, when i was in school today, i was wondering why my friends and lecturers keep reminding me to go see Sam Tan (course manager) privately. I thought he just wanna tell me the details personally or something. Until my teacher told me that they didn't do th groupings ytd cus I WASN'T THERE! THEY WANTED TO APPOINT ME AS ONE OF THE LEADERS!! & my tcher mentioned that, bcus i wasn't there ytd, SAM TAM MIGHT HAVE CHANGED HIS MIND OR SOMETHING !! Like i'll seem like some irresponsible person -.- OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~

Its not about the leader thing i am so concern about, if i successful manage to do well in the role, i would say it will be a plus point in my portfolio next time. My results r shitty already. Need to find all ways and means to at least do well in something right? :/

Sighhhhhhhhhhhh~ I may have just let a goood chance go pass me. I came up with a crappy excuse of having an urgent matter at home :(:( I'll only know tmr. WISH ME LUCKKKKK!!!! (prays)

Swam today! Couldn't perform, muscles are still aching badly after the 7km run. Hahahha, still can't forget that shiok feeling. I should try it again sooooon!! (Y) Night runs are the best!

Alright, gotta head to my notes. HAVE TO MEMORIZE AT LEAST 2 CHAPTERS!! Studying is like running a marathon, pain will befriend us :) JIAYOUUUUU EVERYONE!! :D

To put it nicely, friends. Bluntly, i don't want to talk to you

Spare me PLEASE!!!!!!!

I realise, i only blog everytime when I am troubled. Making it seems like blog post are filled with emo thoughts -.- Idc, i am gonna do another one :(

Exams are next week and I have to admit i am highly affected by the people around me still! May it be friends, or... I SERIOUSLY WANT TO JUST TAKE OUT MY HEART FOR THIS WEEK AND CONCENTRATE FOR ONCE. Not like i cannot focus on my studies or what, but i everytime i go home, i end up with a black face and DO NOT WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE! I shove everyone, and i mean everyone off. Like tell them" Please dont bug me"

People ask me, you go study alone? I am like hmmm, yeaaaaa. In my brain, im thinking : Is there a problem? -.- Is something wrong with me? I prefer to study alone. I feel like i don't have to fake anything. Its just me and my notes.

Aiyaaaaaaaa~ I've become such an introvert. I don't know myself anymore. Said this like a million times. FYI, for people who don't know how i am like before, you will think, "THIS BITCH IS FUCKING WEIRD".

Why is everything so hard... I just wanna be perfect. I really really really reallly really want to just please everyone and be happy while i continue to upgrade myself. i wanna go back to secondary school :( I miss my friends, active me and high self esteem me without faking anything.

I am looking forward to my Lombok trip, but definitely not the company :( Friends don't ditch you when you are in trouble. Or don't even bother to make the effort to look at you and say hi when you just reach school. (I wasn't alone at that time)

Holidays starts on the June10! But........
& the second week, it will be my turn to be overseas.
Just great~

Its just school

School has started and managed to adapt to the new semester after week2. Well, at least thats for school work wise. For friends, I guess i only managed to decide to put everything aside and seriously focus only last night :) I somehow just xiang tong le.

Well, i just thought that, if i want to enjoy my trip to LOMBOK Indonesia, i really have to just forgive and forget. & even if it takes for me to work 10times harder than others to get my desired grades, i will! I AM GOING TO STUDY HARD, EXPERIENCE MUCH AND JUST MAKE FRIENDS :) I can do it i know! (:

Its only week 3 but there is a hell load of things coming in already :( ! & i reallly hate market research! Teachers all guai lan!! & the dumb lab work thing is PBL? WTH -.- Its superrrrr difficult to learn ourselves and we can't even get the software to try it out ourselves. (Jesus! What were they thinking)

Got my pay on Mondayyyyyy!! Yay! It wasn't much as compared to CK last time. But i bought a pair of shoes which is super unexpected!! But i love it omgggggggg!! :):) Of course, he has the same pair too which makes me like it more! Teeehee!!

Overdued photos. I'm just gonna upload a few ^^




Bought this reallly nice headband! Expensive for a hadband~ But it was toooo nice! I couldn't resist it :X

I MISS LOELLE SIM JIAHUA AND LIM JIT KHAI! :(
Ohhhhhh i wannnna watch a movie damnit! My Fast&Furious5, my Thorrrrr~ :/ Funshion! faster come out!

I'm lazy to continue already~ Shall post more this weekend :):)

Pain with sweetness

2 weeks of school have passed and i feeeeel mentally tired. Im sick of pretending im sick of smiling all day while inside of me im screaming. I thought i've settled down and found the right people. However, its back to where i started. Is it so fucking hard to find true friends and not judge?

What's wrong you people? Not happy then say la, don't have to give those ridiculous eyes or behave like the world revolves around u -.- Gimme a break man. Outtalk me if u can. Ready any time any where! Not like i have something to be guilty of.

Thank god for strawberries and Sam today (L) I feeel better already.

Pace myself

Its been quite a week! :) It was Week0, the freshman orientation. business school is too big for the freshies to stay over so we only could spend time with them for 2 days 0nights :( Which i feel they can't really bond with one another lur. It was the same case for me last year. Took quite some time to adapt unlike Design school or others :(

Was looking forward to it! Wonder how will out freshies be and all. & when they came in. Woah~~ They had branded goods all over them! Girls have like LV bags, Gucci bags, Prada wallets and all! & i looked at what i was carrying, it was a 4dollar worth of bag that i got from Taiwan. Depressing~ O.O

Some of them were really fun and enthu! The others were just... in their own world. Too shy to open up yet i guess. Had fun with the other SLs though! Made new friends too!! :D & i can finally rmb every step for TP mass dance :PPP









& DAY2! We didnt have much time to teach the freshies the cheers. Sort of like to warm them up. & the seniors were super anti climax -.- Anonnying* We were really worried we won't win the Best School trophy for the 7th time! Business school has already been winning it 6times in a row for the past 6years! Of course we can't let our batch ruin everything right!

The freshies were not cooperating and it worries us :( However! Business won 1st in Regatta, olympiat! The cheer and stomp did well toooo!! :D Engine school was our enemy! & Applied Science joined in too. SO IRRITATING! Why must they be so competitive~

They even said mean things about us -.- Anyway, its over and we won the 7th TIME!!! (: In their face literally! Went for Jam&Hop after everything and it was funnnnnn! :D:D Had the Hewark people and Charaine, WZ, Eileen, 2 freshies- HongTing and Bobby, Van, kuien and shili etc~

Sweat like some dog like that! UBERRRR HOT!!! Hope to spend more time with Hewark soooon! :D Miss them!










Timetable is out and Charaine, Eileen, Wan Zhuang and I are split to 4 different classes distinctively :( New class will be a new challenge for me. Hopefully i can adapt and meet nice people there that actually is concern about their work :(

I've got Jap for CDS and at least I know i have Andy in the same tutorial class as me :) Finally someone who actually is serious about work ^^

&&&& I'm going Malaysia tmr! So sudden! But hell yeahhhhh! :D Can't reveal too much here

Camp fever

Im having camp fever now!!!!!!!! I wish i was in FO !! :(
I'LL NOT MISS IT NEXT YEAR MAN!
Post more about it during the weekends! Photos coming up! & Freshies are fun loving :D
CHOU WEN XIAN IS IN TP !!!!!!! Screams*

Im enjoying my life now

Last week was a hectic week for me! Sing K with Loelle for 5hrs straight on my off day :) The room was freezing!!! I guess thats where i got a cold. Its been like 2yrs since i fell sick. On the day itself, i was just telling Loelle " You're the weak one! You don't have to worry about me." Hahahhahah!! & the next moment, BAM! I got score throat, flu and fever came soon after -.-

Regardless of my illness, i still went for my Sentosa trip with Charaine, WanZhuang and Eileen :D:D It was actually the 1st time after knowing them for a year, I've ever gone on an outing with them. Long story about my friendship story with Charaine and Eileen. But I really don't wanna think about what's gonna happen in year 2. Like who will have in my class next year and all.

Although i want all my close friends in the same class as me next year, but on a second thought, they don't study. I'm really afraid it will affect my grades and all. Especially projects! I'm not looking down on them but its really my biggest worry :( At the same time, im worried i don't click with the new people :(:(

For example, i always attend lectures but they don't. What if i paiseh to go alone and don't go too. Although i usually have self-control but we never know right? :/

Anyway! Regardless of all these troubles, i still had fun with them! Photos:

After that, i somehow still managed to find the energy to meet Hewark for dinner!! Astons was too crowded so they headed for JustAcia instead :) I was late!! Made Peihuan wait so long. So paiseh :(

We still went to play arcade, ate Taohuey and played L4D with the remaining people :) I HAD TO THE URGE TO PLAY SO BADLY!! I havent touched L4D for at least half a year! It was a pity we didn't finish the campaign round as i was racing for my last bus :X Who knew my brother and daddy were around the corner! So they came to fetch me! HEHEHEHHE :P

Gotta thank Peihuan and Shawn.L for accompanying me. They say if i wait alone there will kena picked up. AWWWW!! I have sweeet friends :D

The next day, had Sl Teaparty. A refresh cheers activity :)

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a small dinner outing with Hewark again :) Wanted to play pool but i wanted to go home early so gave it a missed after seeing that there were no available tables. But before that, we lepak for awhile and bitching session! :P

CASE 1683 GUYS!!!! ^^

Sorry for the messy photos! I just realised i forgot to change the settings :( Bear with it!

Work today at Levis Ngee Ann City wasn't as bad as i thought. I was expecting really mean people but i guess my performance left a good impression on them (Y) HELL YEAH! Was suppose to have Swenson's dinner at Marina Sqaure with Patrick, Eleen, Den and Daren. But everyone had something on so it has to be cancelled. It was to celebrate Den's birthday but i guess i only can celebrate with him Thursday and acc buy his Salomon.

Can't just not celebrate his birthday. Hes been really nice to me :) Have to appreciate it :)

I really really want to see how does a rock climbing competition works! SO COOOOL!